am aware both of what I had done and of what I had not done up until then. Since in this life too I am aware of what I have done — and more at this moment of what I could not do — I have need of more lives to chisel my self, my quantum, further and make me more myself by making me more human. *** I have now reached the point where I perceive life and death at the same time, as lives following each other, with death the aspect of unhooking oneself from the forms one has given oneself because these forms are not quite adequate for what one came to do this time. Unhooking in order to hook oneself on again in a more evolved human — one's mother — and in an environment whose attributes will permit the next stages of one's evolution. In this life I have let so many coins run away from me which I could have held onto if I had sensed deep down that they were necessary to my evolution. In this life I have prepared for my next life and I know that my death has no other meaning than that of giving me the opportunity to attempt, in a new incarnation, to take on those undone jobs necessary to my human evolution towards a more human life whose meaning will become explicit by my living it.
Published on Jun 15, 2011