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En d l ess L oop i n g Th e l oopin g con ver sation s in m y h ead, wh er e I?d r etel l th e stor y. To n o on e in par ticu l ar. To m ysel f. To th e accu ser *. I?d ju stify m y cu r r en t r el ation al distan ce an d l eech sym path y. Fr om n o on e in par ticu l ar. Fr om m ysel f. Fr om th e accu ser. By th e tim e I r eal ized it, m y l ip was sn eer ed off to on e side an d bitter n ess was h an gin g ou t in th e back of m y th r oat. No! Not again ! I th ou gh t I?d been th r ou gh th is. I th ou gh t I?d for given th em . So back to th e r er u n of th e for given ess pr ocess I?d go. Th en in a fu r th er effor t to go deeper in for givin g, I?d even pu l l m y sh ou l der s back l on g en ou gh to pr ay for th em . To r eal l y pr ay for th em l ik e I h oped som eon e wou l d pr ay for m e. I?d speak bl essin gs over th em . I?d beg for h eaven to fal l down on th em . I?d m ak e decl ar ation s of m er cy an d favor over th em . I?d sen d gifts. An d I wou l d step in to a l evel of peace. Bu t soon er or l ater th e r er u n s wou l d h ave to r er u n . Even tu al l y, I adm itted to m ysel f th at al l th is wor k I was doin g, tr yin g to for give in isol ation , was n ot br in gin g abou t th e tr an sfor m ation I h oped for. I won der ed if a face-to-face m om en t with th e per son wh o h ad h u r t m e wou l d h el p.

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