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nation. There is a law which entitles me to do this. A group of about twelve workers has already formed. But the political events overshadow everything. We are very well and objectively informed. We understand clearly how completely mad events are. In fact, people here have progressed much further in this direction of thought than on the other side of the Atlantic. This freshness, which is totally lacking in tradition, is very invigorating. And people are struggling hard and honestly to attain some very important goals. We have sent your mother some coffee. We shall also try to send you some scientific books. I hope so very much that we will not lose contact with each other. What has this long time apart done to us? It is a major problem, and I am right in the middle of it; I don't know which way to turn, and the only thing that gives any direction to my life is my research. I have put together a new manuscript on future possibilities and it has turned out quite well. Unfortunately it is only in manuscript form.
24
January
1941
I have been trying to continue this letter for the past three weeks, but I have been so busy that I just did not get around to it. Perhaps it was also because I did not want to say what finally needs to be said about you and your personal life: This war has not only destroyed a great deal already but has also probably made it totally impossible for many years to come to restore old relationships. What I mean, and I say this to you in deepest sadness, is that you should not wait for me. I cannot expect or require it of you, nor should you expect or require it of yourself. Try again, as best you can, to be happy. It might take a very long time before you have the chance to come here. You can't wait all that time without suffering harm; we can't live separated from each other for years. If we ever meet again, heaven knows what will happen if we have both become involved with other partners and yet remain unchanged. It would be stupid to decide that today. Therefore, I do not want you to suffer for my sake. Let us try to accept this as bravely as we can. You know that there is always a place for you in my heart. I know that this is not a comfort in a situation like the