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So many ways to die...

Poems by David Record


Contact : David Record www.DavidRecordMusic.com info@DavidRecordMusic.com Tel. 1-647-835-0585


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42$*+,&$'"()$%5$*+,& for Candice

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Friend of my heart, sugar to my mind! 7KHGHVLUH\RXWRRNIURPPHLVVRSRWHQW it left a trail behind. :LWKH\HVOLNHĂ&#x20AC;UH\RXUVWDUHFDQSXULI\ <RXUYRLFHLVOLNHZDWHU that quenches my thirst inside, my thirst for your love. %XW,FDQ¡WEHVDWLVĂ&#x20AC;HG,QHHGLWWRVXUYLYH so my soul will never cry. Until I see you next, I count down the time, <RX¡UHOLNHWKHVXQVRIDULQGHSWK illuminating my mind, bringing joy to my eyes, when a new day arrives, my lips are a sign, RIDNLVVLQGLVJXLVH LI\RXORRNSDVWP\ZRUGV I never tell a lie, ,RQO\NQRZKRZWRORYHVROHWPHHGXFDWH\RX demonstrate a touch that would only equate you, separate you, with my deepest passions. /LNHDSHEEOHLQWKHODNH\RXULSSOHZDYHVWRWKHPDVVHV waves of energy, that vibrates within, because of the seriousness of your expressions, WRWKHVRIWUDGLDQFHRI\RXUVNLQ ,¡PVRSDWLHQW waiting to show you my love, to reciprocate enough, WRKDYH\RXDVDIULHQGZKHQ,¡PGRQH I wish for your trust, and just to hold you with a hug, so you can feel how much WKDW,¡PLQORYHZLWKP\ORYH

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6+782&5$-)8+79) :+78$;+7# for Rose

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:KLOHRYHUORRNLQJHYHU\GHWDLORIP\TXHVW ,NHHS\RXUHQWLFLQJFRXQWHQDQFHLQPLQG WUDFNLQJWKHSDFHRIP\KHDUW ZKLOHZDONLQJWKHSDWKRI\RXUH\HV following the signs. But they all read â&#x20AC;&#x153;Dead Endâ&#x20AC;?, no way out, only one way in. 6WLOO,¡PRQO\WKULOOHGWREHJLQ

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On this journey through your soul, I have become one with your nature. I stand off from afar, not to endanger, but to see a stranger, in all her beauty.... so intuitively, DQG,FDQ¡WKHOSWKHORYH,IHOWVWDQGLQJKHUH inside your atmosphere. You are everywhere. <RXUERG\¡VVFHQHU\LVPRUHDOOXULQJWKDQDQ\WKLQJ,KDYHHYHUVHHQ a landscape of eternity, hidden behind a fantasy, of paternity, ZKHQ\RXVSHDNWRPHLW¡VOLNHELUGVLQWKHWUHHVVLQJLQJVRIUHHO\ LWZHDNHQVPH In need of energy, ,ORRNWRWKHIUXLWVRI\RXUOLSVVXUHO\HYHUVRVZHHW only they are out of reach. 6RLQVWHDG,¡PRQP\NQHHVZLWKDSOHD building a strategy from necessity, until I sleep. Sleep in your lap, all night when I camp, dreaming of your treasures revealed in my map, LI\RXKDYHWRDVNZKDW,¡PVHDUFKLQJIRU" much more than the act, but the passion, devotion, the warmth and enchantment, I live for that. I have never been here before, but yet I feel at home, as if it was somewhere I was always trying to go. 'RQ¡WOHWPHJR just let me roam, so we can grow. $QGRQHGD\DURXQGWKHJOREHHYHU\RQHZLOONQRZ about my journey through your soul.

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*+,&<3$.$'.#="29$>"3(.2?& for Cindy

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-D\ZDONLQJE\GHVLUH through emotional sun showers, crossing stones of sapphire, I could cry in that hour, in the twilight of my thoughts, WKHUH·VDOZD\VKRSHEHIRUHGDUN VOHHSZDONLQJWRKHUKHDUW day dreaming from a far. Her Summer eyes, Christmas smile KHUKDLU·VOLNHVSULQJEXWIDOOVZLWKVW\OH QDWXUDOZDYHVP\KHDUW·VUHVWUDLQW ORFNLQJGRZQP\ZRUGVIRUGD\V So they come, and they go, OLNHSULVRQHUVRQKROG until released again. +HUKHDUW·VWKHVWUHHWVWKH\ORQJWRVWUROO Pastures meadows of my mind justify the wings of time, through peaceful thoughts OLNHZLQGFKLPHV ZKHQ\RXEORZDFURVVP\VNLHV The air of you is sweet, garden scent of mint leaves deeply rooted far beneath the loins of my love for you.

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-)&$@&80&?($A"8# for Her

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7KH\VD\VKH¡VQRWUHDOEXW,VHHKHUDOOWKHWLPH VWXG\WKHZDVWHGOLIHRIDPDQVWULFNHQEOLQG IRUORRNLQJWRĂ&#x20AC;QGKHUH[LVWHQFHLQEHDXW\UHGHĂ&#x20AC;QHG ,VSHDNLQIDLWK because only one lie, desecrates this state of mind, she is more than meets the eye, yet I see her all the time ,DVNHG*RGLIP\YLVLRQVRIWKHSHUIHFWJLUODUHQ¡WUHDO ZK\DP,VWXFNZLWKWKHP" He answers â&#x20AC;&#x153;all things were made perfect until man corrupted themâ&#x20AC;? Ahhh!! so I loved again, VKH¡VKHUHL¡PWHOOLQJ\RXVKH¡VKHUH $OOIRUWKHORYHRIPRQH\VKH¡VKHUH QRWEHFDXVHRIWKHPRQH\VKH¡VKHUH but the reason a man would chase money LVEHFDXVHVKH¡VKHUH ZKDWJRRGLVVXFKDELJKRXVHZLWKRXWKHUWRVKDUH" ZK\WKHĂ&#x20AC;QHVWFORWKHVLIVKHGRHVQ¡WVWDUH" QRWHYHQDJODUH"ZK\VKRXOGDPDQFDUH" (YHU\WKLQJVKH¡VQRW,GRQ¡WQHHG because everything I want is she, RQHPD\DVNVHOĂ&#x20AC;VKO\ ZKDWDERXWPH" EXWLW¡VEHWWHUWRVXIIHUWRSOHDVH than to suffer to be pleased. There is no me, without you, she or he, so she is me. which I swear before he, whoever he may be, +HUFRQYHUVDWLRQLVOLNHDQDYLJDWLRQ out of tribulation, KHUJODQFHLVOLNHGDPQDWLRQ to the man perverse with hatred. Only pain could understand, why she has not yet a man, LQDQLPSHUIHFWZRUOGDSHUIHFWJLUOV¡VIDUIURPWKHKDQG For this world is no more than how one perceives it, VRZKHQ,VD\VKH¡VWKHSHUIHFWJLUO even she!! might not believe it. Im telling you she is here, trust me! I see her all the time, always been that perfect girl, forever perfect in my mind.

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!"#$%&'($)%!"#$ for searching lovers

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/RYHNLOOVDQGORYHFXUHV ORYHKHDOVORYH¡VVRUHV The translation between the two is a mystical journey only blind faith guides you through. Never yield to opportunity nor set time with destiny, always push through undoubtedly and hear the calling within this remedy. Thorns may pierce the memories, and grief shadows your steps, as tears drown your faith, and anger starts to set, IRUWKHRQHGD\\RX¡YHGUHDPWZRXOGUHSODFH\RXUUHVHQW LQVWHDGQLJKWEHFDPHDIULHQGEHFDXVHVOHHSDZRNH regret, but without sustaining till the end. Dear friend, you will never love again. Protect this dream, for this is all you have left. Never nurture it with fruits from seeds of your frets, OLVWHQWR\RXUZRXQGVXQYHLOVRUURZ¡VWKUHDWV and challenge the outcome, and outcomes love dressed in its revenge, to murder agonies of past tense with its caress. Ă&#x20AC;QHVVHWKHKDQGOLQJRIWKLVDUWZLWKSDWLHQFH IRUWKLVSLFWXUHZDVSDLQWHGE\WKHKDQGVRIWKHDIĂ LFWHG and created through the lessons of truth, and remains as you see it, LQLQĂ&#x20AC;QLWH\RXWKDQGDQFLHQWZLVGRPUHSURYHG ORYHVĂ&#x20AC;QGVORYHDOZD\V Love needs love forever, Love hears love years away, and lives solely to be acquainted with its yearning. Its burning lightens the path to its home and never leads love astray. ,WVSHDNVRIGUHDPVDQGHQFKDQWHGWKLQJV never seen through loveless eyes, for love lives to cure love so love never dies.

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;(&B3$+0$()"3$*+,& for Ashton

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Baby, assure me the comforting warmth of your arms OLNHWKHVOHHYHVIURPDVZHDWHU branded with the melodic sounds of your name DQGNQLWWHGZLWKWKHWKUHDGVRI\RXUORYH The sweet scented breeze of your hair WKDWEORZVDFURVVWKHHDUWKWRÃ&#x20AC;QGPH *LYHPHWKHVHQWLPHQWVRI\RXUKHDUW·VFDQGOH WKDWJXLGHVPHWKURXJKWKHGDUNQHVVRIP\GHVSDLU never stop burning for me... I see you for who you are... ,NQRZ\RXUSDLQ DQGWKURXJKLWDOO,ZLOOWDNHP\WLPHWRFXUH\RX :LWKP\GHJUHHVRIORYH ,·YHDFTXLUHGIURPWKHVWXG\RI\RXUERG\·VGLYLQLW\ *LYHPH\RXUKDQGDQGZH·OOZDONLQWRIUHHGRP )UHHIURPWKHERQGVDQGVKDFNOHVRIWKLVXQNLQGZRUOG into a realm of new beginnings and never endings . :KHUHWKHUH·VQRIHDULQWKHZRUGVZHVD\WRRQHDQRWKHU and every letter spells love, and every sentence is a question of your desires, and every minute is spent in your eyes. &DQ\RXEHOLHYHZLWKPH" Follow my voice and rest in my faith.... EHFDXVHWKHÃ&#x20AC;UVWOHWWHULQ\RXUQDPH is the second in mine. 6RP\VHFRQGQDWXUHLVWRSXW\RXÃ&#x20AC;UVW and rehearse all the steps of this love.

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!"#$%*)%+%,+-.+)/ for Vina

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Living off her breath, gasping for strength love caressed the air I breathe. :LWKLQDPRPHQW¡VHQG I wish we were wed. Love is a fantasy. My eyes hallucinate before the shrine of her grace, such a face could bring a man so low. :LWKLQWKLVIRROLVKVWDWH she steals my fate, and shapes it as her own. +HUVKDFNOHVRIWHQGHUQHVV honey glaze my wrists, UHĂ&#x20AC;QLQJP\JUH\¡VWREOXH between her warm wind my rainy days. :HFRXOGEDWKHXQGHUWKHPRRQ How sad the account of being free, GUHDP\H\HVĂ&#x20AC;QGSDUDGLVH ZKHQFRQĂ&#x20AC;QHGE\IDQWDV\ 7RNLVV\RXRQFH ,¡GJLYHLWDOO and die before I leave. 0\ORYH¡VH[WHQW surpasses death, as she remembers me.

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-+$C"2D$:+7 for Angel

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$OOWKDWFDPHWRSDVWWRĂ&#x20AC;QG\RX crossing rivers of tears, RYHUEURNHQKHDUWHGVWHSSLQJVWRQHV to get beside you, outliving late friends I could never touch again, just to hug you. +XJPHOLNHLW¡VWKHODVW \RX¡UHPRUHWKDQWKH\FRXOGKDYHDVNHG Decades I waited to be under your graces, forgotten faces along the way ZHUHWUDFHVRIDEOLQGGDWH¡VUHYHODWLRQ HDWLQJRIIGHVWLQ\¡VSODWH 2QEHKDOIRIIDWH¡VUHVHUYDWLRQV made for our acquaintance. $V\RXUIDWKHUVWDUHGLQWR\RXUPRWKHU¡VH\HV procreating a plan for you and I before our time, MXVWWRĂ&#x20AC;QG\RX the creative minds, the construction sites, that built the store we met outside, grafted our lives within their blueprint designs, I had to cry a thousand times, to learn to console you, I could have died a thousand times but not before I found you, ZKHQ,VHDUFKLQVLGH\RXUVSDUNOLQJH\HV P\OLIHSOD\VEDFNDJOLPSVH VRPDQ\WLPHV,ULVNHGP\OLIH WRVHHP\VHOIOLNHWKLV <RXUORYHVRNLQG\RXUZRUGVVRIUHH DQGJHQWOHZKHQ\RXVSHDN ,¡GKDYHWROLYHP\OLIHDVHFRQGWLPH WRĂ&#x20AC;QGDORYHDVVZHHW I love you here, I love you now forever and for more, ,WWRRNWKHSHUIHFWWLPHWRĂ&#x20AC;QG\RXUORYH No Lesser and No More.

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E2&,&2$:+#= for Sameen

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2XUORYH·VIRUELGGHQE\RSSRVLQJIDLWKV though salvation is steps away VXFKSDLQLWWDNHV abandoning her angelic face ZKLOHPLONLQJWKHSDUDGLVHRIKHUH\HV the honey in her smile, VKH·VOLNHWKHDPELHQFHRIKHDYHQ heaven for a while. Is God angry with me, for loving outside the category FKRVHQIRUPH" if we are to be separated eternally, in the hereafter, ZK\FDQ·WZHEHIDVWHQHGWHPSRUDULO\ LQWKLVFKDSWHU" ,NQRZKHUEHOLHIVIRUVDNHPH born equally, yet woven spiritually within hierarchy, appealing for mercy on the authority of her love I need, P\KHDUWLVFOHDQ\HWZHDNIURPWURXEOLQJWKRXJKWV RI*RG·VGHSUHGDWLRQDJDLQVWPH Yet the joy I feel in her arms could only come from a loving God, WKHJLIWRIP\OLIHELUWKPDUNVKHUWRQJXH ZKHQVKHVSHDNVP\QDPH moving mountains in my heart. :KHQP\IDLWKLVVWURQJ ,FDQZDONRQZDWHUVRIWHPSWDWLRQDQGQRWGURZQ KRZPXFKPRUHGHHSWKHVHZDWHUVRIORYH" ,DVNIDYRXULQWKHVHWLPHVRIEORRG Forgive our differences DQGHYHQO\\RONWKLVORYH

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;"207#$F#"33 for Jessica

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6KHZDQGHUHGDORQHWKURXJKP\PLQGRIGDUNQHVV oblivious to the devices VHWE\WKHNLQGQHVVRIWLPH but time is no friend to a captive, her curiosity bound her victimized, to a man of impulsion, whose eyes are blind from over indulgence. ,VSRNHQRZRUGV as I disconnected her morale from her morality, and unclothed her secrecies, her eyes searched franticly for my identity, but she found none, only a cold stare of familiarity. +HUZRUGVVRXQGHGOLNHPXIĂ HGQRWKLQJV as I slowly savored the sweet scent of her innocence and vulnerability, the beauty of her unworldly eyes pierced me, truly too good for these, for the nature of these hands, her foolish eyes too good to see a defaced man As I pleasured my mouth with her two sweet sugar mounds, the heat from my tongue swirling about formed her, DVZLWKWKHVKDUSVWURNHVRIP\WHHWKVKHTXLYHUHG with obedience to the lead of her bodily transgressor.

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She breathed as if running away in her mind, but could not escape, as I pulled her hair from behind, and forced her down, GRZQLQWRDSSUHFLDWLRQRIKHUPLVWDNHV and acceptance of never getting away. As she succumbed to my ravishing whisper, I forced open the gates to her forbidden treasure, DVP\Ă&#x20AC;QJHUVURDPHGXSDQGGRZQKHUFRUULGRUV she begged for my repute, but felt dismayed she could not refrain from losing her fountain of youth. Tears of joy ran down her inner thighs, as she cried on the inside, I embellished her pain, she would never be the same, eyes opened to the cruelty of her own mind, which betrayed her and acquainted with mine, her body disowned her and chose a new foster. Deep within her, I rose to become all I am, GHHSO\UHĂ&#x20AC;QLQJDQGFROOLGLQJWKLVULYHUGDP until it gave way, and poured out the love restraint, she wept the sweet sounds of dignity, as I released all seeds of sanity, and drew her down with me into a world of sinful bliss.

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*.2D$+0$()&$>&.D for society

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'RQ¡WOHWWKHPIRRO\RX 7KLVLVDZRUOG\RXGRQ¡WNQRZ where everyone is afraid RIWKHORYHWKH\GRQ¡WVKRZ 6SHDNLQJLQFRGHV while stepping on toes, through the land of the dead where life will never grow. :KHUHIHWXVFDQ¡WVXUYLYH but there silence is alive, where a fool is considered wise IRUKLVVFKHPHVRQRWKHU¡VOLYHV Because good deeds are the soil for bad seeds toiled, So he who has the open heart VSHDNVGHDWKRQWRKLVVRXO :KHUHĂ&#x20AC;UHĂ&#x20AC;JKWVĂ&#x20AC;UH within a ring of hell, but when the blind protect the blind ZKRZLOOOLYHWRWHOO" :KHUHWUXWKLVFDJHGDQGOLHVDUHWDPHG E\DEHQHIDFWRU¡VJUHHG where love is made from concentrate Ă DYRUHGDUWLĂ&#x20AC;FLDOO\ They scream long live the dead. They chant for death to set them free. The scent of blood is on their breath, WKHURWWHQĂ HVKRIOLEHUW\

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-)&3&$C#.G&3$+0$H.(& for this pain

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This hate lives in my despair, LWFHOHEUDWHVP\HYHU\EUHDWKDQGJLYHVWKDQNVIRUWKHGD\ LWGULQNVWRP\SDLQLQWR[LFDWHVLWVHOIZLWKGHDWK and goes to prepare my grave, OLNHDQHQHP\EHIULHQGLQJPHDOOP\ORQHO\GD\V PRXUQLQJDWP\ZDNH HYHU\PRUQLQJ,ZDNH ,I\RXEHOLHYHLQJKRVWVORRNGHHSZLWKLQPH and hear the silent screams of eternity, a residency occupied by vacancy, a place in me, PDGHIRUQRRQHWRFRPHEXWWDNHVHYHU\RQH DQGVWLOOIRUVDNLQJPH My belief in a cure, is the cure in which I believe, yet this intangible grief still captures me physically within its reach, it holds me tight to this leash despite WKHĂ&#x20AC;JKW,JLYHWROHDYH DFRROEXUQLQJXQGHUQHDWKP\VNLQ eternally bleeding from within. This evil seed planted in my fertile memory, feeds from the minerals of my energy, LW¡VZDWHUHGZLWKWKHWHDUVRIP\PLVHU\DQGDWWUDFWVOLJKW IURPWKHĂ DPHLWLJQLWHVZLWKLQPH its roots are grounded permanently beneath my reach, and grows sporadically, No one can muster my pain, without, VXIIHULQJWKHVHĂ DPHV

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.0$%&"'(.)0*1 %", !"#$%"(%2$+.0 for My Anonymous love

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Give me love or give me death, sweet sweet death, come save me from this life, DWQLJKW,¡YHZHSWWHDUVRIWKHGHDG FRQĂ&#x20AC;QHGLQDWLPHOHVVELQG FXUVHGE\ORYH,FRXOGQRWĂ&#x20AC;QG ZKDWLVWKLVOLIHRIPLQH" I can not see, but in death maybe, P\OLIHZLOOUHSUHVHQWORYHĂ&#x20AC;QDOO\ eventually Love in the eyes of those who hate me, DQGZLVKWREUHDNPH ORRNZKDWGHDWKPDGHPH even to those more fortunate to have been granted love, appreciate me, IRU,DPWKHFRQWUDGLFWHGUHĂ HFWLRQRIWKHORYHWKH\UHFHLYH VRWKDQNPH )RUORYH,ZLOOĂ&#x20AC;JKWQRWWRNLOOQRUWRGLH but to capture love alive. ,QVWHDG,VXUYLYHGDORYHOHVVĂ&#x20AC;JKW held captive to my pride, bound behind the gates of strife, tortured day and night. :K\" Oh generous death VRORQJ,¡YHGUHDPWDZDNHPHIURPWKLVOLIH spread my bed in colors of red, so we may wed tonight, FRPHWRXFKP\Ă HVKZLWK\RXUFDUHVV and lift my spirit high, JLYHPH\RXUOLSVDQGWDNHP\EUHDWK I live for you tonight. My heart is hollow, it swallows me whole, sorrow corrodes my bones. ,¡YHVWDUYHGIRUORYHDQGQRZP\OLIHLVDVDFDVNHWFORVHG P\VPLOLQJIDFHLVSLFWXUHIUDPHGIRURQORRNHUVWRVHH already forgotten in my present state how love rejected me.

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-)&8.B&7("?$I5&3 for Susan

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She has therapeutic eyes, her eyes are monetized by a system, depreciating my life ZLWKWKHLQà DWLRQRISULFH over the time I spend within them 7KHVHH\HVDUHZRUWKDZKROHGD\¡VZRUN H\HVDSRRUPDQFDQ¡WDIIRUG even with all the riches spent your heart is still in debt. RQFHNQRFNLQJDWKHUGRRU This game we play, is built from shame, deep sorrows of affairs, VWLOOWKHRQO\SDLQV,NHHSLQYDLQ are thoughts I cannot share, How could she explain P\LQIDWXDWHGSDLQVZLWKRXWEHLQJFRQIXVHG" the more I search for love, within this place, WKHPRUHL¡PPLVXQGHUVWRRG For this sensuous segregation, I need a mental translation, EHWZHHQRXUERGLHV¡FRQYHUVDWLRQ through internal mediation. :KDWLIP\SUREOHPOLHVZLWKLQP\VLOHQWFULHV RISDVVLRQDWHVLJKVIRUWKHH" Your expensive eyes are therapeutic ties that bind you and me.

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%+GG5<3$;?.8"29$*+,& for Mommy

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Too young was my heart aggrieved, screaming my plea, gently, PRPP\GRQ·WOHDYH mommy please, all I need is mommy. %XWPRPP\FRXOGQ·WVDYHPH DOZD\VVD\LQJ\RX·OOFRPHEDFNWRPH DOZD\VEDFNRQP\NQHHV ,NQRZ\RXFDQ·WVHHSDVWP\LQIDQF\ to see my disbelief. Your smile is scary to me, as you leave, <RX·UHQHYHUWKHUHWRVHHZKDW\RXGRWRPH ,GRQ·WXQGHUVWDQGWKHVHFKLOGKRRGSDLQVRIDPDQ ,·PJURZLQJWRRIDVW Your merciless plans to give me all I have, ,ZRXOGKDYHJLYHQEDFNIRUPRPP\ %\WLPH\RXJRWEDFNP\IDLWKKDGFROODSVHG my eyes hardened now passed trusting your judgment DQGVXJJHVWLRQVIRUZKDW,ODFN

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Hate resides in my tongue and I smile as you did once 2XWLQWKHZRUOGORRNLQJIRUPRPP\ KRZFDQ,PDNHKHUORYHPH ,SURPLVH,¡OOEHJRRG ,¡YHEHHQZDLWLQJOLNH\RXWROGPH and never left the stoop, RQO\MXVWWRĂ&#x20AC;QG\RXDQGEULQJ\RXEDFNWRWKHURRW WRNHHS\RXDZD\IURPHYHU\WKLQJRXWWKHUH Your place is here, ZK\GRQ¡W\RXZDQWPH",PD\VHHPRYHUORYLQJ ,¡PVRUU\ 3OHDVHGRQ¡WOHDYHGRQ¡WOHDYHPHOLNH mommy 6KHGRHVQ¡WNQRZVRPXFK ZDVQ¡WWKHUHWRZLWQHVVQRUIHHOVREOLJDWHGWRUXVK to tell me hush, in the middle of the night with no one to hug, VWLOODIUDLGRIWKHGDUNWKHGDUNQHVVLQP\KHDUW P\GDUNHVWWKRXJKWV ,NQRZVXFKORYH,¡YHEHHQKHUHRQFH she appeals to my trust ..... MXVWOLNH mommy.... It feels unjust, but my hopes are up, ,ZRQWFRPSODLQ,¡OOVDFULĂ&#x20AC;FHWRGD\LIWRPRUURZ\RXVWD\ EXWVKHUXQVDZD\OLNHDOOWKHEDE\VLWWHUVSDLG to replace the love of mommy. Mommy, ZK\GLGQ¡W\RXWHDFKPHWKDWORYHLVQ¡WDOOKRQHVW\ but sometime scarcity, not all charity though sometime vanity, not always soldiery but casualty. ,¡PWRUQEHWZHHQ DQXQGHYHORSHGPDWXULW\ODFNLQJIDQWDV\RIP\RZQIDPLO\ DQGWKHDIĂ LFWHGFKLOGLQPH crying for his mommy, L¡PWXUQLQJZRPHQDJDLQVWPH PLVOHDGLQJDQGOHDYLQJPHFU\LQJOLNHWKH\RXQJPH VWDULQJWKURXJKP\H\HV¡ZLQGRZVUHPLQGLQJPHRIWKHUDLQ\GD\VRI\RX when my tears drew, years ago, always waiting for mommy.

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@++8$F+5$0+8$;.#& for the blinded

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One poor boy for sale, going cheap, to the woman of greed. 0\H\HVDUHPHHNP\KHDUWLVXQGHU but my mind is free. ,KDYHWKHĂ&#x20AC;QHVWHDUVWRKHDU DOOĂ DWWHULQJZRUGVRIGHFHLW ,WDNHVHFRQGKDQGEDWWHULHVRIOXVW DQGQHYHUJLYHXS,¡P\RXUUHFHLSW

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)LUVWFRPHĂ&#x20AC;UVWVHUYHWRWKHFRYHWRXVJLUO I am reusable, and negotiated under the table of trust, my conversation is rustproof and smooth as a hush, TXLFNO\GLVSRVDEOHRQFH\RX¡YHXVHGPHXS DQGZRQ¡WFRPHEDFNWRKDXQW\RXUPHPRULHVRIXV 3RRUER\IRUVDOH,¡P\RXUVWRNHHS my price has dropped, EHFDXVHRIVKHWKDWEURNHP\VHDP and damaged my idealistic dreams, with her temper when she smashed me, against the walls of her grief. ,¡PLQWHUQDOO\FKLSSHGEXWVWLOOHTXLSSHG for you to purchase me. Going once to the lady of discretion, going twice to the damsel distressing, EXWJRQHWRWKHZLWFKORRNLQJIRUDEOHVVLQJ to add to her potion of demolition, a potion of ruin, used against her jealous pursuant, my transaction of blood is exclusive, DQGUXQVĂ XHQWIRUKHUDPXVHPHQW Come one, come all and see, WKHUH¡VQHYHUEHHQDQRWKHUĂ&#x20AC;QHDVPH selling so cheap. ,¡PSURIHVVLRQDOO\WUDLQHGLQEHLQJOHGDVWUD\ My empty heart has much space to play, much recreation for your day, DIWHURXUEUHDN I lay in wait, just in case you have free time again. Is there any advance upfront, WRWKHKLJKHVWELGGHURIORYH" No hands go up for a poor boy prejudged, E\KLVNLQGZRUGVDVVXFKSHUFHLYHGDQRPDORXV through the eyes of unjust and un-monogamous, 2VWHQWDWLRXVO\WKH\ORRNGRZQDWPH ,WVHHPV,¡PVHOOLQJVDQLW\ because all my love is free.

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@++8$F./5$;#.,& for Lashana

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Kill Me With Love  

Book of Poems mixed with concept photos