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SEPTEMBER 18, 2014 – THURSDAY, NEW YORK

Yesterday, after Dr. D and I finished talking about what I’d concluded from reading my black notebooks, he expressed surprise that I’d maintained a separate set of diaries just for vacation writing. Apparently when he made the travel-writing suggestion three years ago, he assumed that I’d just write in the same red notebooks I’d been keeping since I started working with him back in 2007. Why keep two sets of diaries, one for travel, one for anger management? I told him that bringing my anger-management diary along on vacation had never occurred to me. In fact, I never took the red book anywhere—I always keep it locked up in my safe box at home. The last thing I’d do is walk around with it. You don’t see dwarves walking around with stepladders, I said, so why should I go around carrying the sign of my biggest vulnerability? This seemed to surprise him even more. Dr. D wondered if there was anything in my childhood that led me to be so guarded about the anger diary. I told him about that time in freshman year of high school when I was in after- school detention and Dad showed up out of nowhere. He announced that he had to take me home to clean up a big mess I’d made in his office, then yanked me out of there so fast that I left my algebra textbook behind. When I found it the next day, I discovered that Tommy Lydon and a couple of the other kids had spent the rest of detention glossing the chapter on logarithms: “Someone dropped a log in the office”; “The captain’s log is full of semen”; “The captain’s log is on fire,” etc. I told Dr. D that

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