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the city. She’d cry the whole way, but at the hospital doors she stopped. When my sister had a fever, she hallucinated, always dreaming with her eyes half closed, through lash-less lids. She told me everything she saw that I couldn’t. Once she spoke of a dark horse that brought her sweet, ripe plums. Or: The sun is shining pink in the middle of the night. Don’t anyone tell me it makes any sense that she became sick and I stayed well. Or that it could have been predicted, prevented. The chances of developing cancer are higher if you are a man. Colon cancer affects men at much higher rates than women. The likelihood of developing breast cancer is significantly higher if you are a woman, though on rare occasions it can affect men. Your probability of developing breast cancer doubles if someone in your family has been diagnosed with breast cancer. You are unlikely to develop testicular or prostate cancer if you are a woman. You are not likely to develop cervical or ovarian cancer if you are a man. My sister clenched her teeth together and fought as I’d never before seen, or have seen since. Her fever broke; her hair grew back, fine and soft, like the down of a chick. She finished school and moved away for college. Three times a year she had followup appointments; three times a week I went to my job after school. She lost her humor and I, my innocence. Like all parents, my parents blamed themselves for everything, thinking a moment of past neglect could have caused all this to happen. Our grandmother blamed Chernobyl and couldn’t be persuaded otherwise. My mother began to leave the house less and less often, and avoided her friends. My father stayed later and later at the office and became skinnier than ever. I missed my sister. Merkel replaced Schröder; Obama replaced Bush. We moved

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