122109 Sometimes I sit up at night wondering why I even try talking to you. You never listen to what I have to say and you think you know how I feel you when you have no idea what I feel on the inside. I am notting like the way you felt when you were younger mom I am more grown then most girl I am in with him and if you think I am going to get over him I’m not going to I am so madly in love with him you don’t even know mom he treats me the way a girl is to be treated. He is like my sun in me in the morning when there is no sun. I really wish you new how bad I love him mom but you know what you will never know. So when I leave and don’t come back you can’t blame him because the only person you can blame is yourself for me leaving. Because I hate that you think that you know me when you have no idea I wish you were able to see how good he treats me. So when I leave for college he is coming with me and I will still be with him through all of this because you don’t even know how it is mom you don’t even care about how I feel mom. Your not going to be able to change the way I feel about anyone the only person who can change it is me.