I Cheated

I ate when I wasn’t hungry

I ate because I was sad I ate because I was a hole that needed to be filled I ate because my mouth was empty

I ate my loneliness I ate my streak of being good I ate my self-respect

I ate garbage I invented new freestyle garbage to eat ham wrapped around bread wrapped around cheese ham wrapped around fingers wrapped around thighs

I became garbage sadder, lonelier and emptier arms wrapped around shoulders wrapped around knees grief wrapped around loneliness wrapped around nothing