Disappointment is thrown strongly at my direction. Blame gathers in large quantities like a pest infestation. "It's your fault" and words like "You always make mistakes" evoke anger. Anger which I want to take out on myself and take out on others. I can excel in my work of choice, I know I'm more than average. The bad gets pointed out more and little praise is given for the good. Stunned by unmoving words. I'm like a prisoner sentenced to jail, released and expected to do worse. .Destruction emerges from my enraged emotions, i wish your words could offer a solution. I want to be an alchemist and turn things into gold. It's ironic how I am a creator of words but cant create better words in my critics. Conversations lead to arguments because i want to be heard. I'm sick of revolving doors, sick of being slammed by your atrocious comments. "You have no common sense" you say to me, maybe I just prefer to be in a daydream, my mind drifting away because life is too dull. .Realize that what you say has an effect and that effect can drive somebody or stop them in motion.
Songs to listen to:
You're making me crazy, really driving me mad That's all right with me, it's really no fuss As long as you're next to me just the two of us
Oh brother, sweetheart I'm feeling so tired, really falling apart And it just don't make sense to me, I really don't know Why you stick right next to me wherever I go
First zine ever. :3c