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telling her about every little thing that bothers me or that every single thing that makes me feel uncomfortable with myself is a waste of her time. Today we talked about how my mother always told me I should have been born a boy. She’d always say boys are much easier to take care of. No having to do hair, no having to get dressed up, no boyfriends, no worrying about getting attention from grown men at the age of 13, no attitudes, no periods, no girl hormones that make you emotional. I guess those are things parents don’t have to worry about when they have boys. Natalie asked me how my mother’s remarks made me feel. I told her they confused me; they made me reject myself as a girl. My mother’s remarks made me feel as if I didn’t belong in this body, and I began to internalize everything that she said to me. I told her that I don’t really believe I am supposed to be a girl, that I was truly placed in the wrong body and labeled the wrong sex when I was born. Natalie asked me if I feel rejected by my family for being a girl. I told her yes. My brothers were always treated differently: they were nurtured and loved. Me, I was isolated. I was treated as

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2020 Leadership Journal E-book  

A leadership journal written by girls from Newark, NJ to cultivate courageous conversations and action. Purchase your copy at theleadershipj...

2020 Leadership Journal E-book  

A leadership journal written by girls from Newark, NJ to cultivate courageous conversations and action. Purchase your copy at theleadershipj...