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internalized everything that I was told regarding my gender. For a long time, I listened to these voices whispering, “You should have been a girl. Even your mother thinks so.” The turmoil and torment in my mind got so bad, I finally gave in. I just accepted it. I was so tired of hearing those lies in my mind telling me what I should have been and should be, that I just gave up. After successfully transitioning using hormones and getting surgeries, I became a prostitute and began doing drugs and drinking. I was an exotic dancer for about 20 years, until I got into a physical altercation with my roommate, who pushed me down a flight of stairs, causing me to break my face. I’m sure the story is moving fast, but this is what I need you to understand: when you make big life choices, always think about whom you’re doing it for. Always ask yourself: Is this going to make me happy, or will I be fulfilling someone else’s hopes and desires for me? Ask yourself, “Am I becoming who I want to be, or am I becoming a new and improved version of myself?” As I sat in the waiting room of the ER, all I could think about was how much I hated my life. Everything about

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2020 Leadership Journal E-book  

A leadership journal written by girls from Newark, NJ to cultivate courageous conversations and action. Purchase your copy at theleadershipj...

2020 Leadership Journal E-book  

A leadership journal written by girls from Newark, NJ to cultivate courageous conversations and action. Purchase your copy at theleadershipj...