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all that now. The damage is done, and I’m pretty sure Tia will never be the same. ~Lex

November 4, 2019 All I ever wanted was to feel loved, but lately I feel dead inside. These past few days have gotten worse with each passing minute. Every day, I feel empty, like my body doesn’t belong to me, like I’m trapped in a nightmare. My chest tightens when I’m anxious, and I feel like curling up in a ball and telling myself I’ll wake up from this dream, but it never happens. The only person that really knows what’s going on is Natalie, and the only reason she doesn’t have to tell my mom is because I don’t slice myself open when I feel like it. That doesn’t mean I haven’t thought about it, though. I have a couple times, especially after what happened to my locker. I know for a fact Lexi told someone about me wanting to transition. It was most likely her new best friend, Kianna. I really thought she could be the one person I could trust through all this. I thought she’d be my shoulder to lean on, but I was wrong.

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2020 Leadership Journal E-book  

A leadership journal written by girls from Newark, NJ to cultivate courageous conversations and action. Purchase your copy at theleadershipj...

2020 Leadership Journal E-book  

A leadership journal written by girls from Newark, NJ to cultivate courageous conversations and action. Purchase your copy at theleadershipj...