Ups and downs/The swing A PHOTOSTORY BY BRUNA MARTINI
The sound of your breath is annoying. How have you not noticed it before. After 40 years, this is the first time the simple act of respiring bothers you. Your breathing gets faster and louder. You stand up, go to the kitchen, drink some milk, sit down again, open a magazine, put it back. Thatâ€™s when you realise you have a phone in your hand, and someone is still talking at the other end and your child is no longer in the house and you donâ€™t care about your husband anymore.
You still remember when you were a school boy, and you got a bad mark in the maths exam. That exam you studied so much for. You could feel the cold sweat on your forehead whilst you waited for your dad to come home. Your eyes on the big watch on the wall, your mind full of disappointment. Your voice trembling when you told him. And dad whispering â€˜you will do better, I am sureâ€™. You have always wished you could do the same with your child. But you spend your time in the memory of someone you already know is not there
Published on Jun 1, 2011