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HELLO. ARE YOU LOST YET? For the four th copy of AYLY, we teamed up with inter national

youth or ganisation Project 2020 for a whole new challenge; making a magazine in one week with a group of young people from across Europe. Young creatives from the UK, Greece, Italy and Republic of Macedonia came together in the Macedonian city of Kumanovo and after picking the theme 'TRANSFORM', we put together this zine in five languages, including the local Kumanovan dialect. We were inspired by the streets around us, our tr ip to Skopje and of cour se our home towns. Over the cour se of a wintr y week in December, we or ganised an intereultur al night, a visit to a local youth led magazine, an open mic and a magazine launch night. I hope you enjoy these pages- they are the result of a br illiant week of collabor ation and creativity.

Tom Bevan, Editor in Chief

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tr ansfor m

verb | trans¡form \ tran(t)s-?f?rm \

I. to change in composition or structure II. to change the outward form or appearance III. to change in character or condition

Front and back cover s created by

EH and GD

Disclaimer: The views and messages expressed here by contributors are not necessarily those of Pr oject 2020 CiC, AYLY, CID, Er asm u s+, ECORYS, or any other partner who supported the production of this magazine.


CONTRIBUTORS TB

NB

AV

TOM BEVAN CYM

NEFELI BAFOUNI GR

ANGELA VELIJKOVSKA MK

EH

AD

BD

EMMA HALL UK

ARGIRIS DARDOUMPAS GR

BOBAN DOCEVSKI KU

MT

LP

SM

MARC TILLEY UK

LIA PETRIDOU GR

SIMONE MARAGNA IT

KG

RB

FF

KATE GOODRUM UK

RAFAEL BROUZOS GR

FOUED FGUIRA IT

GD

HR

DE

GINNY DARKE UK

HEROLINDA RAMADANI AL

DIME ELENOV MK

HC

EF

ANP

HANNAH CHUKWU UK

ENGJELLUSHA FAZLIU AL

ANNA NICHOLS- PIKE UK

OD

DT

EJ

OLY DARKE UK

DARKO TRAJKOVSKI MK

ELLA JOYCE UK

DC

MD

EP

DANIEL CARTER CYM

MARIO DENKOVSKI MK

ELECTRA PETRIDOU GR

GK

GA

GEORGE KARAVAS GR

GIUILIA ANNIBALETTI IT


I speak, ergo I am (?) Talk, speak?it is in that moment when you are presented to the world, when you exist with certainty as a being with a (hi)story to tell. There is power in this act: the single fact of saying something is a way to create, to form and transform reality and fantasy, in short how you perceive the world. From the content to the context (everything from words to intonation, sentence structure and gestures), when speaking we?re connecting through expressing ourselves, as we?re always, in some way, addressing the Other. Language, however, in the strict semantic sense is, in principle, excluding. It raises walls and puts barriers between people(s). It can be distancing and dividing. And powerful. If you want to know something about me, I will tell MY story?personal and subjective. I will shape my identity as I see fit: that is the power of storytelling. The question is, how do we break such borders? How do we bridge two -seemingly- distinct worlds? How do we not get lost in translation or, on the contrary, how do we immerse in it? How do we lose ourselves into somebody else?s wor(l)d? But most importantly, how do we give somebody their voice back? How do we make unheard voices speak up?

words:

NB

illustr ation:

EP


MetamorphoseMetamorfoza

This city of mine, so foggy Emotionless faces marching into streets These people of mine, so foggy Every zombie has woken up Something happened, Something changed Something bloomed, something burnished

Spirits dancing in the storm Slowly going back to their bodies Such an angelic metamorphosis.


Ky qyteti im, sa i zymtë... Të pashpirt duke marshuar nëpër rrugët e qytetit. Këta njerëz tonë, sa të zymtë... Çdo zombi është zgjuar

Diçka ndodhi, diçka ndryshoi Diçka lulëzoi, diçka rrezatoi

Duken shpirtërat t'u vallzue në stuhi Duke u kthye nëpër trupat e tyre Një metamorfozë engjëllore.

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EF photogr aphy: RB


this time when the dream spilled you caught it ? The night clings to you each breath inhaling the inexhaustible darkness. Sequestered thoughts unfurl in black as you wait for the quiet to speak. No? Safe. You are alone. Slowly, tentatively, you open. Gently at first then faster and faster as irrepressible dreams unravel, their size and shape rhapsodical uncontainablein your astriferous mind. You spill over each hope each reach larger than the last out of your control you attempt to catch to put back but this time no. (follow your lead) Stars and dust and us ? all one. Your pulse in time with tide, a world too wide to hide hopes uniquely yours. ?W e are such stuff as dreams are made on?: You are a slice of sky. Your thoughts the verse of universe.

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HC illustr ation: GD


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EJ


Teen ager s in a basem en t: Daycl u bbin g in Ku m an ovo We spoke to Lavdium, the Albanian owner of the newly established daytime club Boka in the heart of Kumanovo, a venue which he frequented himself as a teenager.

From 7am to 7pm each day, an unassuming space nestled beneath our office in Kumanovo is transformed into a club, blasting out loud music to a total of around 60 high school students. Paintings and clip art images adorn the walls, just visible beneath the fog of cigarette smoke that fills the room. For the past 7 years youngsters have flocked to this place, attracted by the cool atmosphere and lack of alternative things to do in the area. They drift in both between and after classes, meeting friends to smoke and drink coffee. It is a space unquestionably different from anything that we have ever seen before, with nothing of its kind existing in the UK or Greece. We ask Lavdium where people would go if Boka didn?t exist: ?To another place like this?. During our visit around 20 young people gather inside the venue. There is a small group of girls huddled around smartphones in the corner, but otherwise the club is filled completely with boys. When I ask why this is, Lavdium explains


that it is not really culturally acceptable for girls to hang out here, even though most of the students that come here do so without telling their parents. Whilst the day-to-day routine of the venue is fairly consistent, Lavdium recalls when the popular rap musician Samir (Instagram @samirs4m) paid a visit to Boka, proudly showing us video clips of the venue brimming with young people dancing. He also hosts parties for birthdays and the International Day of Albania, transforming the somewhat dingy room into a space where these young people can celebrate. We view new places such as this through the prism of our own experience, and yet perhaps it is time to shake off our preconceptions, transforming the way in which we immerse ourselves in other cities, communities and cultures.

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KG photogr aphy: HR


Skopje Transformed ''We must leave somethi ng to provi de for new generati ons to be able to survi ve.' words:

HC photogr aphy: FF RB AD MD

Tow eri ng m onum ents of anci ent heroes and classi cal Greek bui ldi ng facades li ne the bank s of the ri ver Vardar i n central Sk opje. Rem i ni scent of the grand, i m posi ng structures that fram e m any of Europe?s gli tteri ng capi tals, you w ould be forgi ven for m i stak i ng i t for a m i ni ature Pari s or Vi enna, but w anderi ng around the ci ty one gets the sense that som ethi ng i s sli ghtly off-k i lter. These bui ldi ngs are less than seven years old.


In 2014, Macedoni a?s capi tal w as utterly transform ed i n a project nam ed ?Sk opje 2014?- i ts m ai n ai m w as to rei nstate a sense of collecti ve hi story and nati onal pri de, but m any ci ti zens resent the ci ty?s new i m age. Costi ng around ?500m i n a country w here econom i c and ethni c di vi de runs deep, m any beli eve the governm ent m i ssed an opportuni ty to heal som e of the country?s w ounds and prom ote i nclusi ve uni ty. Hundreds took to the streets i n 2016 to protest the governm ent i n ?The Colourful Revoluti on?- throw i ng pai nt bom bs at the controversi al bui ldi ngs and statues. On the streets of Sk opje w e asked the Macedoni an publi c how they felt about the changes, and these w ere thei r answ ers. A 22 year-old Sk opje resi dent: 'I li ked the square that w as here before, w e had concerts and m any di fferent events. But now i t?s very crow ded w i th all these statues, I don?t thi nk they are very needed. But I li ke som e of them . I w ould li ke them to have spent the m oney i n a di fferent w ay, on entertai nm ent or m ore clubs. I don?t k now , som ethi ng for the young people.?' ?The atm osphere of the ci ty I feel i s concentrated i n the centre now ,


before i t w as m ore spread out along the ci ty, but now i t?s m ore along the square. I thi nk i t should be m ore spread out li ke i t w as before.? A Greek student li vi ng i n Sk opje: ??????? ????? ??????? ???? ???? ??? ????, ????? ? ???? ???? ???? ????????, ? ???? ? ??????? ??? ????? ? ?? ????? ?? ????? ????? ?? ???????? ????? ????????? ??? ? ??? ?? ??????, ???? ??????? ??? ????? ?????????? ??? ????. [The statues] have transform ed the ci ty very m uch. They have brought about a lot of touri sm . The ci ty look s m ore beauti ful than before, because the statues are new , as are the bui ldi ngs, but I thi nk that all thi s i s excessi ve. Alexander, 40, Sk opje: ?Wi th the m oney that the last governm ent spent on the m onum ents they could have bui lt a new tow n i n Republi c of Macedoni a or som ethi ng that w ould soci ally help the people. A salary for a w orker i n the Republi c of Macedoni a i s around ?200 and I thi nk they spent ?2 bn on thi s. Thi s i s Di sneyland - I m ean, w e don?t have rai lw ays from Bulgari a to Albani a and w e have bui lt som ethi ng w hi ch i s not producti ve.


People here, w e don?t have w ork and even i f w e have w ork w e don?t have how to survi ve. But people m ust li ve. He adds: 'Everythi ng i s i n tensi on now - not just betw een nati onali ti es, but even betw een reli gi ons. For exam ple, people are soci ally di vi di ng the ci ty i nto secti ons for Chri sti ans and Musli m s. We need di fferent thi ngs to connect the people. We m ust leave som ethi ng to provi de for new generati ons to be able to survi ve.? Another local resi dent told us: '? ? ? ????? ?????, ?? ???? ??? ? ? ?????? ?, ? ? ?? ?????? ? ?? ? ? ???? ???? ? ? ?? ??? ???. ? ?? ??? ? ??? ?? ?? ?? ? ? ????? ???? ?? ? ?? ?? ?????. ? ???? ? ??? ? ? ???? ??. ???? ??????? ?? ? ? ??? ???? ?? ????? ?? ??????? . ? ???????? ???? ????? ??????? . ?? ?? ?? ? ??????? ? ???? ??? ?, ? ? ?? ? ??? ?? ??????? ? ?? ?? ?? ? ? ? ?????? ? ?????? ? ? ??? ???? ?.' 'It?s pretty to look at,i t?s i nteresti ng for the touri sts, but I w ouldn?t say the sam e for the people li vi ng here. That m oney could?ve been i nvested i nto som ethi ng else. It used to have a w arm er atm osphere. Now you can see that i t look s li ke every other ci ty. Everythi ng look s li ke i t?s from a di fferent ci ty. I rem em ber the w ay i t w as before, now w i th the new bui ldi ngs and m onum ents the ci ty appears very cold.'


In side Ou t Ku m an ovo th r ou gh th e win dow of tr an sfor m ation : u r ban expl or ation of th e city's n ew an d ol d, fr om beh in d th e l en s. photogr aphy:

MT


Change is not always bad; you can always find something good in it. Think about a Butterfly, it wouldn?t be that beautiful if it didn?t pass through changes during its existence. I am that Butterfly. I passed through changes that made me what I am today, changes that have influenced my way of thinking and the way I face situations. I have an important message for you. At the beginning, change can hurt us, because we don?t know how to face it, and then, just because we fear it, we can arrive at a point where we cannot even try to face it. This makes us feel worse, day after day, ?til the point when we feel exhausted by the stress -or even more. I passed the limit of being exhausted. I faced loneliness and pain, and no one could help me. No one wanted to help me. The pain I felt in the moment where I lost the person that I loved ripped me inside, leaving scars that are still open today. I had to face so many changes but I wasn?t able to do -I was too scared, I built walls around myself and I wore a mask every single day ?til the moment I couldn?t recognize myself anymore.

I h ave an im por t an t m essage f or you . Ch an ge. words:

SM illustr ation: GD


Raise you r m iddle f in ger an d go you r ow n w ay.

And it was in that moment that I realized that I had to accept the changes, positive or negative, walking forward proud of being myself. I also realized that we always need to change for ourselves and not due to other ?s opinions, which only judge us without knowing us. They only want to make us feel worse every single day. Don?t listen to them. Don?t care what they are thinking and saying. I have two tattoos on my body, one of a Phoenix and one of a Wolf that is howling at the moon. What do these tattoos mean to me? Raise you middle finger and go your own way. Be the change you want to be. Don?t be afraid, change yourself the best you can, so in the future you can think about the situation that once was and be proud of yourself because you changed it. Be like the Phoenix. Rise from your ashes. Be like the wolf. Find your way without the fear of being alone in the middle of a bunch of judgemental people. Take your time to understand who you are, once more.


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??? ? ? ???? ????????? ?? ??. ??? ? ???? ?? ?? ????? ?? ????? ? ?? ???? ???? ??? ? ??? ?. 15:15,?????... ? ?? ?? ?? ????????? (? ?????), ? ???? ? ??? ? ?? ????, ?? ? ??? ?????... ?? ???? ?? ????? ? ???? ?????? ??????????? ? ???? ??? ????? ?????????. ? ? ???? ???? ?? ? ????? ? ?? ?????. ? ????????? ? ?????? ?? ?? ???????? ? ? ??????? ????? ? ?? ? ????????? ? ????? ??? ???? ?? ?? ? ? ???? ??????????. ? ?, ??? ???? ??? ?????? ? ???? ?? ??????. ? ??? ???, ?? ? ? ???? ?? ???? ?? ??????. ? ??????? ? ?? ?????? ??????????? ?? ???? ??? ??? ?? ? ?? ?? ???? ? ?? ? ?? ?? ????? ??? ????? ?? ???? ?? ? ???? ???? ???. ???? ?? ????? ?????? ???? ???. ? ??? ????, ?????? ??????????, ?? ??? ???? ???? ? ?????? ? ??? ???? ?? ? ???? ??? ?? ??? ? ? ??????. ?????? ? ? ????? - ????? ??? , ????????? ?????? ? ? ???????? ??? ?????, ? ?????? ? ??? - ????? ?? ???? ???? ??????????... ? ???-???? ????, ? ?? ????? ??? ?? ? ????? ? ?? ???? ? ????, ??? ? ?? ??? ? ??? ??. ? ?? ???? ???? ?? ?????, ? ???? ???? ????, ??????? ??, ???? ?? ? ? ??????? ? ???. ???????? ? ?? ???? ? ?? ??????? ???? ? ???? ??? ?? ?? ??? ??????? ? ???????? ??, ???? ? ?? ????? ??? ? ????? ???????. ??????? ????? ???????, ?? ? ??? ? ????????? ?? ?? ?. ? ?? ?? ????? ? ?? ??????...

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BD illustr ation: MT


A Market in Macedonia In our hungry fatigue, and yearning to explore, we went into the market, How much are the bananas? Bananas, 50 denar! What peppers and what penumbras! Completing a challenge in the afternoon! Rows upon rows of pale produce. Peppers on strings, dangling, hanging? in limbo. I saw us, the Greeks, the Brits, the Macedonians, poking among the fruit stalls. I heard you asking questions: Who is taking a photograph? What price bananas? I wandered, aiming fully and yet aimlessly. And yet we never bought a single fruit. But the bananas, how much are they? 50. You sure? Yes, 50, of course..

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KG illustr ation: EH


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ANP


Ch r om a

The blur slowly dissolves

And the image before me becomes clear : Boots stepping out onto the grey city Breeze fighting to conquer my br ittle body People are pacing People are marching They want to tur n. Marble to stone. "? ?? ? ??????, ??? ? ? ??!" No justice, no peace!? Nobody asked them who they were Their faces were nameless Histor y has for gotten their days in the Sun Now other s dictate their view of the Star s They say "No!" and they revolt Angr y gr affiti on the walls They paint to get their stor y back Hear ing the poet as he commands: "If I don't bur n, If you don't bur n,

NB

words: illustr ation:

EH

If we don't bur n, How will the light vanquish the darkness?"


illustr ation:

OD


I t?s the little things that make life BI G Trying to think of a unique and untranslatable word in any language, I came up with the Greek word ?Philotimo?. It is considered to be the highest of all Greek virtues. It?s really difficult to explain this word in other languages. In it's simplest form, the term means "doing good" actions that ensure social and individual welfare. You can say that philotimo is a way of life.


Contemplating this word, I thought about how often we ask ourselves: ?How will we change the world??The question seems daunting; perhaps impossible. We often choose to leave our future in the hands of others. But by doing this, we miss an important opportunity because every one of us can help change the world in our own way, through small meaningful deeds that have a positive impact in society.

powerful things the world shares. A smile can cut through all barriers. It knows no age, gender, colour or culture. No matter where you are in the world, what language you speak, or social status, a smile will always be understood. You don?t need a million euros to change the world. All you need to do is focus on the small things. Whatever you do, don?t forget this :

Begin by asking yourself what small thing you can do right today, wherever you are, with what you have. Have you ever thought about how a smile, or a simple ?hello? to a stranger can change their mood in just a few seconds? Little things you do in your everyday life can impact more people than you think.Talking to a neighbour might change the lens through which they view their surroundings. New ideas and a fresh perspective can propel them to create positive change.Just show K indness. Hold the elevator door open for someone hurrying to catch it. If the person standing behind you in line at the grocery store only has a few items, let them cut ahead of you. Help a less-able person cross the street safely. Give someone an honest compliment.

?I am only one But still I am one. I cannot do everything, But still I can do something; And because I cannot do everything, I will not refuse to do the something that I can do.? ?From The Book of Good Cheer : A Little Bundle of Cheery Thoughts (1909) by Edwin Osgood Grover.

Share Positivity. Stop wallowing in the fear-mongering ugliness that the general media tries to fling at you, and instead, let yourself be inspired by the wonder, beauty, and compassion in the world. Lastly, never forget to smile. A smile is a universal gesture and one of the most

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GK illustr ation: EH


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This poem is in a made up language, a mix of Kumanovan dialect, Serbian and Macedonian. The poet's knowledge of these languages came purely from conversation. He has never formally studied these languages, but through listening and talking has gained an interesting insight into the local dialect of Kumanovo.

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DC illustr ations: GA, GD


CRY ? ?, ?????? ??? ? ??? ????? ?????? ??????, ? ????? ?? ?? ? ??? ??, ? ????? ?? ?????? ???????, ? ???? ????? ? ???? ?? ?????, ? ???? ??? ?? ?? ????????, ? ???? ? ??????? ???? ?? ???? ?? ?? ?????. ??? ?? ????? ?? ???????? ?? ????? ? ????, ??? ?? ????? ?? ???????? ?? ????... ? ???? ???? ?? ?, ? ? ????? ?? ???????? ?? ????? ? ????, ??? ?? ????? ? ???? ?? ??, ? ??? ?? ????? ??????... ? , ?? ?? ??????? ?? ????? ?????, ?? ?? ??? ????? ??????? ?? ????? ???, ?? ?? ?????? ????? ???? ?????? ?? ????? ???, ?? ?? ????????? ?? ??? ?? ?? ?? ????????? ?? ????????... ? ? ? ????????, ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?????? ? ?????????? ??? ?? ?? ??? ????????? ????????. (Yes, I do cry, And I do cry a lot, I cry for everything and nothing, I cry for every little thing, When I should and shouldn?t, Even now I could cry, Now and every time I think of you. I don?t want to talk about my life, I don?t want to talk about you? And now it is the same, I don?t want to talk about my life, Because my life is you, Even though you are so far? And you are the pain in my chest, And you are the knifes in my back,You are every tear coming from my eyes, You are the feeling that makes my stomach flip? But in spite of everything, You are still the first and the last thing I think of every day.) words:

AV illustr ation: EP


illustr ation:

GD


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