PERSONAL STORY BY JONATHAN KOHANSKI
GRATEFUL FOR THE STRUGGLE
AN ECLIPSE INDUCED INSIGHT
My insomnia has slowly been creeping back into my life and disrupting everything, my drive, my focus, how my thoughts are formulated and how I’m interacting with people. On June 10th while people wanted to go see the solar eclipse that was due to occur, many simply didn’t want to get up to see something taking place at sunrise, which for that day was 5:06am, locally. For me, a 4:00am wakeup, warming up a Monday brewed coffee (yes, I’ll drink 3-day old coffee) 20-minute drive to the beach is the normal morning routine. On my drive I couldn’t believe how spectacular the sunrise was shaping up to be, the whole sky was a scorching orange, like the embers of a fire ready to descend upon the landscape. I couldn’t remember the last time I had witnessed this palate spread across the entirety of the sky and I was disappointed that I wasn’t already on the shoreline. When I did finally arrive, the sky was still glowing and despite the stunning beauty of the scene, I was focused on what I had actually come to do...photograph the eclipse...though clouds were spread out along the horizon and the situation wasn’t looking even remotely good, I persisted. I locked a large lens onto my camera and strolled out along the sand and down to the water line like so many times before. At this point I was regretting not bringing a wide-angle lens to capture the scene. Instead of running back up to my car to get a different lens, I did the best I could with what I had and just admired and enjoyed the beauty that had unfurled before me. Sometimes we get so enamored with what we’re anticipating or intending to do that we simply overlook everything else around us. Eventually the eclipse came, and the clouds that I had feared were going to ruin it only added to its splendor.
57 AWARENOW / THE UNITED EDITION