AwareNow: Issue 18: The Outside Edition

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Beach Life’, written and narrated by Jonathan Kohanski:

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“I’m a part of the ebbs and flows of the tides, the crashing waves, the calm, and the chaos.”

I’m plagued with an uncertainty that feels more like a burden that everybody else can avoid except myself. Who wants a complicated life? Chronic conditions don’t change a person's fundamental need to feel loved. It doesn’t change the desire to wake up next to someone, to have someone there who cares and is willing to understand the struggle, that’ll walk next to you, no matter how slow that may be. Someone that at times is willing to sacrifice what they want to instead do what you’re able to do because they know the smile it’ll put on your face.

In the ocean, I forget about everything. I forget about my past and the anxiety of the future, the only time that exists in the water is now. I’m a part of the ebbs and flows of the tides, the crashing waves, the calm, and the chaos. The ocean represents something in all of us. An almost endless expanse of possibility, tranquility, storms, and that we all have much more hidden below the surface.

As much a part of the ocean as I feel and as much as I have seen what I’m capable of, I wonder why I can’t deny the power of the ocean, but can so easily deny my own? ∎ JONATHAN KOHANSKI

Open Water Swimmer, Photographer & MS Warrior Hi. I'm Jonathan. I'm a wanderer of sorts, looking to further enrich lives and share experiences that show we are all capable of truly amazing feats that push my own boundaries and can many times turn heads. I'm a sucker for raw and real stories and attempt to share my own, with all the good and bad through that same lens. I'm always open to finding my next adventure that will help me to continue writing the stories that can help others overcome their own demons. I'm a lover of the water and spend a lot of my free time in it, whether it be swimming, body-boarding, or taking photographs while in it. I was diagnosed with MS at the age of 25 and it has changed the course of my life, not just in a physical sense, but also in my perspective of life, what is valuable to me and worthy of my time. We all have our struggles and triumphs, I'm here to share mine and maybe, help others through theirs.