AwareNow: Issue 28: The Mental Edition

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Photo Credit: Joe Lyman

“I have a perspective on life that nobody could ever have unless they are literally staring death in the face every single day, and I am blessed for that.” ALLIÉ: They say what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. Did fighting for your life prepare you for battling to be seen and heard as an artist?

ELLE: Yes and no. I always say that I have a perspective on life that nobody could ever have unless they are literally staring death in the face every single day, and I am blessed for that… I don’t take it for granted. It takes a LOT to phase me which has turned me into somewhat of a disassociated robot, which comes in handy for such a brutal industry. But that being said, this industry is nearly impossible for people in perfect health. So, having basically no health makes it extra impossible and I have learned to accept that. I lived in denial for so long and pushed through as though I wasn’t sick, like I wasn’t hurting, like I wasn’t different and that would end me in the hospital and set me back farther than where I started… But I accept it now, or at least I try to every day. I have to do things differently than all of my peers, but that’s ok, I still get things done. Health has to come first even though I don’t want it to, but it’s the only way to slowly but surely get to where I want to be. I do believe that my situation gives me very, very real things to write about and to speak about, which is so important to me. A lot of music has no substance these days, so it feels good to know that I will never fall into that category as long as I stay true to myself. 57 AWARENOW / THE MENTAL EDITION

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