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Social Media Bipolar Chick Film Banned in China

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Music Dwain Hathaway actress

radiant inborris powell designs vol 2 issue 1 spring 2012


Transforming Homes into Sanctuaries Telephone: 619.948.7173

STAFF paola hornbuckle, head editor

Coming Up in Fall 2012 Nimi – Actress, Film Producer, Fashion Model

editor/writers donnie matsuda kristen fogle sandra van de moere graphic design katie sundberg, head graphic designer

marianne domingo

sarai elguezabal

alizee hazan

elizabeth sanchez advertising/sales scott hornbuckle

Nimi is an American actress, film producer, and fashion model who spends her time giving back. She believes that “negativity begins with ignorance and positivity begins with enlightenment.”  Nimi has been involved with numerous charities and has recently begun her own campaign, “Never Stop Learning”. A contestant in the next Miss California pageant, Nimi is a lovely person through and through whose heart is always in the right place. Read more about Nimi in our Fall 2012 issue.

CONTENTS Art of SD Living p 8 OnTrend Guide - Sandra Van de Moere p 9 Capricorn Boutique - Rebekah Sager p10 Lestats - Kristen Fogle p12 Comedy Night with Mark Christopher Lawrence - Scott Hornbuckle Modeling p14 It’s Ok to be YOUnique - Kristina Marie-Winder Playwriting p21 Unmitigating Theatricality - Donnie Matsuda p40 Deconstruction of a Playwright - Katherine Harroff Film p28 Banned in China - Paola Hornbuckle Social Media p32 Being the Bipolar Chick - Jolene Lammers Art of Giving p35 How We Became Part of a Global Movement - Dana Bristol-Smith Fashion Design p44 Borris Powell: His Journy - Borris Powell Acting p58 Natalie Gal - Paola Hornbuckle Music p62 Dwain Hathaway, Beyond the Glory - Carlos Eduardo Gutierrez PAINTING p66 Magical Realism: Paintings of Still-Lifes - Sonja ter Heijden


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As we discover the people that fill our pages with their images and life stories we are struck by the common theme that unites all of them: perseverance. There is not an artist who has not struggled, sometimes against great odds to succeed. The time, effort, will and commitment that all demonstrate is a sign of that intangible something they all have inside of them to keep pressing on. Borris Powell taught himself how to sew in less than a year and worked non-stop for years, giving up his social life completely and holding down unimaginable work hours. But today he is reaping the fruits of his labor. Although only in her early twenties, Natalie Gal has been working since her early teens in the fields of acting and modeling, and travels the world constantly to meet her work obligations. Sonja ter Heijden taught herself how to paint after raising four children on welfare as a single mother with a disability in the Netherlands. Dwain Hathaway sang and played with the best but due to his dystonia, which took away his ability to sing, he now devotes himself to teaching children music and music composition. So many underground Chinese film directors keep on making movies bringing to light China’s hidden social issues never knowing if their films will find an audience outside of China’s underground market. It is this spirit to persevere that leads them to success and shines a light for the rest of us to follow in their example.

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is truly an Art. Having modeling to transform your body to deliver a range of emotions, for the pleasure of an outfit or cause, t a k e s effort. I have learned so much over the y e a r s from my experie n c e s with modeling. I’ve met many g r e a t people, achieved a n d learned a multitude of selfuplifting lessons, had many memorable experiences, and I continue to grow as a person through 14 these experienc-

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Photographer: Dominic Petruzzi


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YOU nique by Kristina Marie-Winder

Modeling is truly an Art. Having to transform your body to deliver a range of emotions, for the pleasure of an outfit or cause, takes effort. I have learned so much over the years from my experiences with modeling. I’ve met many great people, achieved and learned a multitude of selfuplifting lessons, had many memorable experiences, and I continue to grow as a person through these experiences.  



Photographer: Dondee Quincena Makeup: Jen Kolhagen


I was discovered on August 17, 2008. That day was filled with promise, and a hint of luck, such as being at the right place at the right time!I was enjoying the beautiful sunny day relaxing on the beach at La Jolla’s famous “cove,” and I was approached by Andrew Taft, Scott Copeland International’s modeling scout. Andy handed me his business card, and asked me whether I had ever given thought to becoming a model? Before that time, I had never seriously considered being a model. I was 13 years of age that summer, taller than most of the boys in my class, and I was going through an awkward stage of growing into my long-stretch of a body. I also had very little self-confidence due to having been previously teased for my thinness and red hair. However, thankfully, something seemed to “click” that day, and everything has just fallen into place ever since that fateful summer’s day.  


Modeling is truly an


Throughout my years of modeling, I have met so many great people, such as co-models, hair and makeup artists, photographers, clothing designers, television personalities, and other professionals in the industry, both locally and across our nation. I’ve even become closer to people whom I’d already known. I also have made a lot of new friends at school-- from their eagerness and curiosity to ask me questions about modeling. I always love to help others, male and female, if they want to pursue modeling. Many girls have approached me asking for tips and advice, and it is so flattering! I always tell them this: “Be yourself, be confident that you are beautiful, and don’t let anyone else tell you otherwise.”

Photographer: Gus Baldado


Photographer: Dondee Quincena Makeup: Jen Kolhagen


Blondes are noticed but Redheads are never forgotten

My biggest self-achievement in modeling has been in learning how to be happy within my own skin. I’ve learned to be comfortable with my body by being around other tall, thin girls who’ve been happy with their bodies. I have learned to love how unique I am! And as Coco Channel once said: “In order to be irreplaceable, one must always be different.” With a career such as modeling, a model needs something to set himself/herself apart from the other candidates. I feel that one of those ‘different’ characteristics I possess is my natural red hair. With research, I found that less than 2% of our world’s population has (natural) red hair! I think about this fact a lot, and it makes me very proud to be that individual. One of my most memorable experiences, so far, has been my realization after my first fashion show. I was so proud of myself because of the huge accomplishment I had just made, and also all the fun I’d experienced before, during, and after that special day. Since then, I have been pursuing this dream non-stop, and I plan to keep on pursuing my dream after high school.


Photographer: Josue Pena

Of course I would not have even begun this journey were it not for the support of my Mom. She’s truly ‘been there’ for me and has supported me through thick and thin, during the highs and lows, and she has never given up on me. A huge part of this industry deals with being rejected. I’ve been rejected, but it has served to make me try even harder the next time. Life goes on, and my Mom keeps me strongwilled and motivated in pursuit of my passion for modeling. Sometimes, we models just do not possess the particular “look” they’re seeking at the time, so it’s best not to take the rejection personally. All because of that lucky summer’s day at La Jolla, I have grown and developed not only as a model, but as a person as well. I am very thankful to all of the people who have supported me in my modeling, and with all the support and encouragement of my family, I’m grateful. I will keep on pursuing my dream for as long, and as far, as it will take me, and I am extremely hopeful toward 19 the future. 

Did you know? Politically-motivated torture is practiced in m ore than 100 countries around the world. It can be ph ysical, psychological, or sexual in nature. Survivors of Torture, Interna tional is an independent nonpr ofit organization dedicated to caring for survivors of politicallymotivated torture and their families living in San Diego County. Survivors of Torture, International has served over 1,300 clients from over 7 0 different countries. We are the only accredited torture treatment center in San Diego (accred ited by the International Rehabilitation Council for Torture Victims). Many of our clients were leaders and professionals in their ho me countries. Almost all of our clients are refugees, asylees, or asylum seekers. The victims are not only those who have been directly subjected to phy sical torture, but also those who have witnes sed torture, discovered tortur ed bodies, b een forced to engage in torture, or who have lived in an environm ent where torture is an unrelenting danger. SURIVOVRS helps peo ple recover from trauma through a holistic program that includes medical, dental, psy chiatric, psychological, and soci al services. All services are provided at no cost to the survivors. SURVIVORS empower clients to reclaim the strength and vitality that dictators and governments stole from them. Healing can be m ore difficult when survivors are in exile from their homes— some without documentation, and many without friends, family, or other supporters. SURVIVORS has the knowledge and skills to treat the health consequences of torture. Come to a Journe y to Healing Tour to see how Survivors of Torture, International is creating a safe haven for torture survivors, helping them to rebuild their lives, and building a welco ming community for all survivors. You will not be asked to make a finan cial contribution at our t our, but we do welcome your feedback as we strive to expand our community presence. For more information, visit

theatricality ucsd grad student and up and coming playwright

LAUREN YEE talks about her

Delightfully Strange


story by donnie matsuda

works as two of her plays hit san diego


Lauren Yee seems to elude reality in every facet of her young but prolific life as a playwright...

First, her fanciful imagination naturally concocts quirky characters that are not grounded in reality – a talking wall, a traveling hat, for instance – and manages to mine both the humor and heart in the most unexpected of situations. Second, this freshfaced twenty-something (who is in her third and final year of UCSD’s MFA playwriting program) defies her youthful looks by having produced a plethora of critically acclaimed plays, all of which speak to the fierce talent and unique gift for narrative-based writing that lies beneath her unpretentious exterior. And third, this talented playwright has achieved so many accolades in her young career, it is almost unreal. Among the many honors that have been bestowed on Yee: a Dramatists Guild fellowship, a MacDowell Colony fellowship, a finalist for the Djerassi Resident Artist Program, the Heideman Award, the Jerome Fellowship, the PEN USA Literary Award for Drama, the PONY Fellowship, the Wasserstein Prize, and writing fellowships from the American Antiquarian Society, the Byrdcliffe Artist Colony, the Edward F. Albee Foundation, the El Gouna Writers’ Residency, and the Mills Cultural Center. Yee’s first full-length play, Ching Chong Chinaman was a finalist for the 2008 Princess Grace Award and the winner of the Kennedy Center American College Theater Festival’s 2010 Paula Vogel Award 22

and Kumu Kahua Theatre’s 2007 Pacific Rim Prize. Named one of the top 10 plays of the year by both the East Bay Express and City Pages, Ching Chong Chinaman has been produced on stages all across America, including Berkeley’s Impact Theatre, Minneapolis’ Mu Performing Arts, and New York’s International Fringe Festival. Since writing this seminal masterwork, Yee has churned out nearly a dozen new plays (both short and full-length) and is showing no signs of stopping anytime soon. Her latest full-length play, A Man, his Wife, and his Hat was developed at PlayPenn and UCSD’s Baldwin New Play Festival in 2011 and is returning to San Diego for a full-fledged, professional staging at Moxie Theatre this April. At the same time, her thesis project Hookman (described as “an existential slasher comedy”) is set to premiere as part of UCSD’s Baldwin New Play Festival in 2012. Amid the craziness of writing new plays, mentoring productions of her current plays, and preparing for her MFA graduation this June, Yee took time to answer some questions about her aspirations as a playwright, her educational journey, and her penchant for making the unfunny funny.

playwriting DONNIE: Tell me about your childhood…where did you grow up?  And what fueled your interest in playwriting? LAUREN: I was someone who always wanted to be a writer. It was not until high school that I stumbled into playwriting. I love dialogue. I love how language hits the ear. And I think it was this love of hearing words out loud that pushed me into theater in particular. I grew up in San Francisco and while my parents weren’t artists, they’ve been always very practically supportive of what I do. They were the ones building sets, putting up posters, and ferrying things back and forth for my shows. I owe them a lot. DONNIE: What did you study while at Yale University? LAUREN: I was an English and Theater Studies double major! The Theater Studies ended up being much more helpful than the English, surprisingly.

My first full-length play CHING CHONG CHINAMAN has been my most successful play. I wrote it at a time when I didn’t realize how hard playwriting is, and it’s really interesting to see how my writing has changed since then. [More about “Ching Chong Chinaman”: The ultra-assimilated Wong family is as ChineseAmerican as apple pie: teenager Upton dreams of World of Warcraft superstardom; his sister Desi dreams of early admission to Princeton. Unfortunately, Upton’s chores and homework get in the way of his 24/7 videogaming, and Desi’s math grades don’t fit the Asian-American stereotype. Then Upton comes up with a novel solution for both problems: he acquires a Chinese indentured servant, who harbors an American dream of his own.] DONNIE: How did you come up with the concept for “A Man, his Wife, and his Hat”? LAUREN: I wrote the play in Egypt, almost two years ago. I was there at a writers retreat on the

DONNIE: What made you decide to come to UCSD for your MFA? LAUREN: UCSD’s MFA playwriting program is easily one of the best in the nation. Visiting UCSD as a prospective convinced me that this was the only program I really wanted to go go. Naomi Iizuka is now in her fifth year as chair of the program, and she’s someone who’s really helped to push my writing in new directions and of course correct me when my writing goes off the rails. And I love my colleagues here. The Baldwin Festival is also a huge asset for the playwriting department and the school in general. You get the chance to see your work, attend rehearsals, and form really close relationships with the artistic teams. That doesn’t always happen in the real world. DONNIE: Out of all your plays (both short and full-length), which are you most proud of and why? LAUREN: I would say I’m pretty darned proud of A MAN, HIS WIFE, AND HIS HAT. It’s a sneaky play that is (hopefully) both funny and heartbreaking. Also, I think that it allows for unmitigated theatricality and explores some really emotionally resonant metaphors. Also, it was amazingly fun to write and hear the characters’ voices. 23

“I also had always thought that the title of Oliver Sacks’s book THE MAN WHO MISTOOK HIS WIFE FOR A HAT would make a great jumping off point for a play. And it did.”


playwriting Red Sea, staying at a German golf resort as part of the residency. I was surrounded by foreign accents, and the TV in my room only received two English language channels: CNN and the History Channel. I also had always thought that the title of Oliver Sacks’s book THE MAN WHO MISTOOK HIS WIFE FOR A HAT would make a great jumping off point for a play. And it did.

college is hard when your roommate is weird, you’re feeling homesick, and a hook-handed serial killer is slashing girls’ throats. But if Lexi can discover what really happened to her high school best friend on that car ride to the movies, everything will be okay. In this existential slasher comedy, Lexi and her friends learn what it means to grow up – and it’s not pretty.]

[More about “A Man, his Wife, and his Hat”: Hetchman loves his hat. Oh, and his wife, too. But when both go missing, the retired hatmaker vows to stop at nothing to find them, if he can ever muster the strength to leave the comforts of his armchair. But the arrival of a talking wall and a hungry golem threatens to derail his endeavor. A klezmer-inspired love triangle between a man, his wife, and his hat.] DONNIE: What excites you most about this San Diego staging of “A Man, his Wife, and his Hat”? LAUREN: This play does a little bit of the impossible. People float. Creatures climb out of pits. Walls shake and move. What will be fun for me with this production is seeing older actors in the main roles. In my UCSD workshop of the show, we used MFA actors, who--while extremely talented--were not exactly old. DONNIE: Your work has been described as “delightfully strange” and “a little absurd.”  How would you describe your own body of work? LAUREN: I think my interest lies in expanding what theater can be. I’m drawn to different slants on a certain topic. I also think that all my plays contain some desire to make the seemingly serious and unfunny funny.

LAUREN: Definitely excited about Moxie’s upcoming production. But I’m also thrilled to have two workshop productions of my new play HOOKMAN running or soon to open--one at Company One in Boston and one at UCSD. [More about “Hookman”: Freshman year at

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DONNIE: What upcoming projects/readings are you most excited about?

To learn more about fascinating playwright Lauren Yee, visit her website at: 25

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Hera Hub, a spa-inspired shared workspace for female entrepreneurs, has created new opportunities for well over 100 women-owned companies, who are now members. Hanson states “Shared office spaces are on the rise due to the fact that many business start-ups can’t afford full-time office space. Additionally, many women business owners enjoy the flexibility of working out of their home but still need a part-time space to focus, meet clients, and gain visibility for their business.”

The other good news is the number of women who are starting businesses has increased steadily over the past couple of years. In fact, according to, women are launching businesses at twice the rate of men. The good news is San Diego is leading the way in women owned start-ups. According to the Census Bureau, San Diego ranks number five in the list of U.S. cities with the most women-owned businesses – right behind New York, Los Angeles, Chicago and Houston. As of 2007, (the most recent Census) of the 291,249 businesses in San Diego County, close to 30 percent are women-owned firms 86,951. Additionally, 81 percent of women-owned businesses don’t have employees, so solopreneurs are a significant segment.

This as-needed, flexible work and meeting space provides a productive work environment for women who primarily work from home. Hera Hub members have access to a professional space to meet with clients and to connect and collaborate with like-minded business owners, thus giving them the support they to be prosperous. Hera Hub offers cost-effective monthly membership options for freelancers, independent consultants, entrepreneurs, nonprofits, and authors. The first of three locations is a 5,000 square foot office in Sorrento Valley. New “Hubs” will be opening soon in Mission Valley and Carlsbad. For more information, visit


Rebecca Webb on Art Power! As the ArtPower! Film Curator, Rebecca Webb gets the opportunity to decide what films to screen, how she wants to organize them thematically, and what organizations to partner with to create robust and meaningful film experiences. She partnered with UCSD’s Graduate School of International Relations and Pacific Studies and Professor Paul C. Pickowicz to show “Winter Story”, a banned underground Chinese film. An essential component of the ArtPower! Film Program is to foster emerging filmmaker’s work. Rebecca will be inaugurating the first ArtPower! Film Mentorship Program with High Tech High media students.



Banned in


By Paola Hornbuckle

Dongtian De Gushi (Winter Story) is one of many underground Chinese films the Chinese government does not want you to see. Find out why.


With its booming economy and massive population, China has become a symbol of economic growth and prosperity, a threat to the established industrialized nations, and some fear, the obvious heir to take center stage among world powers perhaps leading the world into a future guided primarily by Chinese influence. But as the culture of underground Chinese filmmaking demonstrates, the present is not as glowingly bright as the future for many impoverished Chinese citizens. Economic and manufacturing prosperity aside, it seems that a large percentage of people in China live under deplorable conditions closer to a third world nation than to a superpower. Severe problems like prostitution, child trafficking, the Aids epidemic, and poverty are tackled in these films without a legal outlet for international distribution. This is a side of China the average tourist will never get to see. In Winter Story, a street vendor and a prostitute establish a “love� relationship after he seeks her services. The two main characters remain nameless throughout the realistic and gritty film, devoid of illusions, romance, or even tender words. He spends his days illegally hawking apparel in an impoverished Beijing suburb.

She has come to Beijing seeking work and falls into prostitution as the only means of survival. A numbing sexual attraction keeps them going back to each other as they consummate their love in cold beds, stairways, decrepit rooms, their dowdy winter clothes barely even leaving them even as they consummate the sex act. Their love seems more like a temporary numbing of the senses: a minor ecstasy in a world with no money or job opportunities, where living hand to mouth is the norm, and finding your next meal, buck, or shelter your primary concern. Director Zhu Chuanming employs a pseudo-documentary aesthetic; the movie unfolds against atmospheric backdrops of Chinese street scenes and local residents filmed unaware.The pollution and environmental degradation is palpable. There is a brief moment of hope as she finds she is pregnant but it flickers immediately as the audience and the character both think on what the future would hold for a child brought into that world.She hesitates to tell him, but a lascivious glance from him to another girl convinces her to get an abortion and the death of a prostitution client force her and her coworker to move to another province, which seems even colder, plunging all characters into a

deeper sense of winter. From now on many of the scenes take place at night. He eventually finds her and they reconnect, but it is clear that the dehumanizing conditions in which they live severely limit the development of their love. Everything is done matter of fact: sex, abortion, love, prostitution. Nothing is soul searched or analyzed, nothing spoken. Survival is the only thing that matters, and money the only truly welcome visitor. Although Winter Story, along with all underground Chinese films, is officially banned, there are many people in the Chinese government that silently approve of them and conveniently look the other way. They feel these issues need exposure and public discourse. In China these films are spread under the table and in special viewings but outside of China people have limited ways to see them and if you Google them you will not find anything on the internet search engine. Private and public educational organizations like ArtPower! and UCSD are essential to bringing this fascinating look at the China the government does not want you to see. But, it is a view that as concerned world citizens, we must see with open eyes and clear thinking. 29


A Discussion with Professor Paul Pickowicz on Chinese Underground Films

Professor Paul C. Pickowicz is Distinguished Professor of History and Chinese Studies at US San Diego and the inaugural holder of the UC San Diego Endowed Chair in Modern Chinese History. He completed his PhD at the University of Wisconsin, Madison, and has been on the UCSD faculty since 1973. He helped select the film “Winter Story” as an example of a 21st century Chinese underground film in conjunction with ArtPower at UCSD in April 2012. ANF - Why did you specifically choose “Winter Story” to present? What factors were included in that choice? PP - “Winter Story” is an excellent example of high quality independent filmmaking in China. Many of these films are documentaries, but this one is a feature film.The acting is really great, even though we’ve never heard of the actors and actresses. Prostitution is a serious problem in China, and this film has the courage to tackle the issue. ANF - What unique vision or subject matter do you feel this film has to offer? PP - The non-goverment filmmaking sector in China specializes in making films that the state sector film studios usually won’t touch.The film resonates with classic 1930s silent era filmmaking in that the representation of the prostitute is highly sympathetic. It’s a compelling social issues film. It gives us a look at China that ourists won’t get. 30

ANF - Can you give us some general information about Chinese underground films? (How many films a year, how long have they been going on, any particular subject they tend to be about? PP - Underground, independent, and non-state filmmaking has been going on since about 1990 with the advent of new, inexpensive technologies, especially video and digital. Virtually all important filmmaking in China from 1905 to 1952 was private and independent of the state sector. But with the Communist revolution in 1949, the entire film industry was nationalized and controlled directly by the state from 1953 to 1990. These days,hundreds of independent and underground films are made in China every year. The UCSD Geisel Library has the largest collection of such works in the world - -nearly 2000 films. The subject matter tends to be about the topics the state sector (still very strong and powerful) does not want to make: investigative documentaries, the AIDS epidemic, child trafficking, taboo historical subjects like the Cultural Revolution and the 1989 Beijing massacres environmental degradation, ethnic minority pride, gay sexuality, religion, and the plight of the underclasses. These films try to give voice to the voiceless. ANF - What are the fines for being caught creating an underground film in China?

PP - The laws are very vague and can be enforced selectively and arbitrarily. These films cannot be seen on TV or in cinemas, all of which are controlled by the state. But it’s also true that there are many people in government who very quietly and from behind the scenes support much of the independent filmmaking.That is, there is a split in the government: somesupport this type of work on the grounds that it is healthy and shows cultural confidence while others are opposed to it because they think it does not reflect favorably on China. Almost all the filmmakers draw the line at explicitly blaming the Communist Party for anything. Their scathing criticisms are usually implicit. There are cases in which certain filmmakers have been told by the government that they can’t make films for 3 or 5 years. But these sanctions are often ignored after a time. These daring filmmakers argue that they are not dissidents; they are proud patriots who believe the healthiest thing to do is put problems on the table and deal with them openly rather than covering them up. They argue that people who cover up don’t really love China. ANF - What types of directors participate in underground films and what type of training do they have? Some of the directors and filmmakers have been formally trained in film school. Some also work, from time to time, in the state sector, and thencross over to do an underground project.

Others are self-trained, even amateurs. Of course, the pioneers of the industry in the 1920s were also not trained in film school; they learned on the job, which led to a lot of creativity. The same is true today. ANF - What are the markets for Chinese underground films? PP - People in China also use new technologies to see these films. Many can be viewed online. Others can be purchased as DVDs in small shops - - that also sell pirated American movies. DVDs are passed from friend to friend. There are also underground film festivals and film clubs that screen films in bars and restaurants. Finally, college campuses, especially art schools, also screen such films on weekends and in the evening. Some of these films make it abroad and are screened at film festivals and art houses. If someone wants to see such films, there are many ways to do it. The subject of underground and independent film is taken up in the book I edited with my colleague Yingjin Zhang, “From Underground to Independent: Alternative Film Culture in Contemporary China” (Roman and Littlefield, 2006). I also take it up in my new book , “China on Film: A Century Exploration, Confrontation, and Controversy” (Roman and Littlefield, 2012).




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how we became part of a global movement by dana bristol-smith founder, leap to success graphic design by katie sundberg


i have a big vision.

art of giving

My vision is a world where women can speak and be heard. A world where it is safe to communicate, where it is safe to be in relationships, where it is safe to love. That’s why I founded Leap to Success. We are an empowerment and leadership organization working with women who have not been empowered, and have not yet been leaders in their own lives. Domestic violence robs women of their voices and their power. Imagine the feeling of being in a room with women where you feel safe. A room where you can speak about what you’ve experienced without judgment and without shame. Can you imagine how free and healing that experience would be? If you were in our Transformation Leadership program, that would be your experience. We are helping women heal, helping them release shame and helping them be able to share their stories with courage and become beacons of hope for others. In the past 4 years, we’ve graduated 89 San Diego women from our programs.

Dana Bristol-Smith, Heather Elise Photography

We are helping women heal, helping them release shame and helping them be able to share their stories with courage and become beacons of hope for others.


Lana came to San Diego on a greyhound bus from Florida with her 6 year old daughter—she didn’t know a soul here and didn’t know where they would stay. She left with $17 in her pocket and got as far away as she could so that her husband wouldn’t follow, and so she wouldn’t go back. She had tried to leave before but she always went back. She had been beaten so badly that she had almost died the Thanksgiving before. She knew that if she didn’t leave, her kids would probably grow up without a mother— that was her impetus. That was her fear. Lana was in our very first Leadership program in 2008. She had just moved out of the shelter into her own apartment with all four of her children. She was working full-time. She had so much courage and strength, but she didn’t really know it. We helped her see her own reflection, see her own power and then be able to share it with others through speaking engagements in the community. Lana said that if she could just help one women know that she didn’t have to stay in an abusive relationship, that she could leave and make it on her own, everything she went through would have been worth it.

A message from Director Rev. Roby Warren I participated with Leap to Success in TVM last year. Eve Ensler’s poignant body of work was very moving for me as it presented such a brilliant tapestry of the many issues women face in awakening to their sexual expression as well as finding their place in humanity as humanity struggles to grant them their place. I believe in women taking on greater and greater leadership roles in their communities and Leap to Success is an organization supporting women to do just that. As minister of The Celebration Center for Spiritual Living and host of “The Celebrated Life”, I am keenly aware of the value in volunteering and was thrilled to be asked to participate in this year’s production for many reasons. On a community level: If my giving of my time to do what I love doing (and doing it with powerful and proactive women) will help empower other women who have found themselves unable to access what is available for them in life on their own and they need a little help, that is the ‘why’. On an altruistic level: the message of TVM is a creative way to awaken the masses to the plight of women all over the world. If because of this production, just one person awakens to take action for change, then I have satisfaction knowing I helped in the forwarding of man’s humanity to man. On a personal level: Firstly, have you ever tried to say ‘no’ to Dana? It is virtually impossible. And secondly, directing has been a lifelong dream of mine and this body of work called to me loudly! Thirdly, the miraculous Law of Circulation has abundantly found me. When you give so very little, it is always humbling to receive so much in return. I have been blessed by the women I have worked with. I have been uplifted by rising to the scope of work. And it has been a gift to do what feeds my soul. If any of this inspires people to take action to live the life of their dreams – well that’s just the cherry on top of a very delightful sundae! Thank you, Dana, for this life-enhancing opportunity. I have been so very blessed by your work.

In 2009, Lana stood on stage as a cast member in our very first fundraiser, The Vagina Monologues. We became part of the global movement to prevent and end violence towards women and girls. The Vagina Monologues shares women’s stories from pain to power. This year, our third year, at La Jolla Playhouse, we were one of more than 5,000 productions happening worldwide! We are no longer alone—we are part of something much greater than ourselves. We are raising our voices, and we are being heard. We are helping women recover their voices, find their strength and form community with other women. We are changing the world, one woman at a time. To learn more please visit: 37

art of giving 2012 Vagina Monologues Cast Top Row: P. Shekinah Perkins, Jill Steeves (Leap to Success Graduate), Jenn Gunsaullus, Carolyn Satter, Mary Lou Rodgers, Jess Johnson, Carey Hardy, Bottom Row: Dana Bristol-Smith, Alex Apostolidis, Roby Warren, Denise Yamada, Becky Robbins, Sasha Clines Photo by Heather Elise Photography


The V Stands for Violence, Valentine and Vagina Through V-Day Campaigns, local volunteers and college students produce annual benefit performances of The Vagina Monologues, a play by Eve Ensler, among other productions. On March 18, 2012 La Jolla Playhouse cooperated with the non-profit Leap to Success to put on one of several productions taking place in San Diego. V-Day is a global activist movement to end violence against women and girls. V-Day is a catalyst that promotes creative events to increase awareness, raise money, and revitalize the spirit of existing anti-violence organizations in our local communities. V-Day generates broader attention for the fight to stop violence against women and girls including rape, battery, incest, female genital mutilation (FGM) and sexual slavery. Voted as one of the “best charities� the V-Day movement has raised over $85 million. For further information on V-Day go to


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of a Playwright Katherine Harroff came to San Diego after obtaining her master’s degree from Arizona. She has completed extensive training with the SITI Company in Saratoga, NY and is certified in the Viewpoint/Suzuki methods. She has written over 20 produced devised theatre projects that have been staged in both Arizona and California including Circle Circle dot dot’s (CCdd) productions of ‘The Break-Up/BreakDown’ and ‘Ragnarok.’ She recently helped the Playwrights Project of San Diego develop their Telling Stories program that allows foster youth create plays from their life stories with the help of Drama Therapy and Theatre for Social Change. Katherine founded Circle Circle dot dot to create a venue where she and other artists in San Diego may be able to devise community-based original works that are unique, entertaining and meaningful.


ANF: How long have you been working on Deconstruction of a Drag Queen? When was the idea born? KH: ‘Deconstruction of a Drag Queen’ has been in the process of development for about 7 months. I first asked the piece’s inspiration Grace Towers if I could possibly write a play that could reflect the life of a Drag Artist in August 2011. She agreed, but at the time Circle was working on its second production ‘Ragnarok’. After that show closed in December, I began the interview process for the show and wrote the first draft in a month. I held a private reading, gathered feedback, and then re-wrote it again to work on in rehearsals. We developed the show even more with the cast during February/March and then happily opened it for its first run in April. It was a whirlwind, but the show’s life is going to continue on past this first run and there will be more development on the piece for its future. The idea was formulated after I first saw Anthony Diaz perform as Grace Towers at the 2011 San Diego Pride Festival in Balboa Park. I met Anthony through my work with San Diego Dance Theater, and we became friends. He invited me to see his show and I was completely inspired. The following week I mentioned to my partner Patrick Kelly that I was interested in developing a piece on Drag Artists after seeing Grace perform and he agreed that it would be a great idea. The next day I received a timid text from Anthony asking me if I would ever consider writing a piece about Drag Artists for my company. Our brains had somehow connected on this wavelength. I called him and we put the gears in motion. Our mutual respect and admiration for each other’s work made it happen. ANF: You expose such a humane side to the metamorphosis into being a drag queen. Why did this story need to be told? KH: It needed to be told because all good stories need to be told. If we can share our stories and have an understanding of why people are who they are- we’ll eventually realize how much we have in common and gain more respect for each other’s lives. We’re all so scared of each other and

If we can share our stories and have an understanding of why people are who they arewe’ll eventually realize how much we have in common and gain more respect for each other’s lives.


It’s not easy to be a woman ! And all of the boys had never really tried, putting on that skin and maintaining ‘perfection’ in it was not an easy task

that fear turns into hatred and anger and it has to stop. Before I started this work on ‘Deconstruction’ I knew a lot of folks who had a misconception of Drag Artists. There isn’t anything wrong with that, they just didn’t know. They didn’t understand why anyone would want to go through the efforts and take on such a craft. I think this play not only answers that question- but it gives acceptance to that desire. Acceptance and respect is an important story to tell in any arena. ANF: What were some of the challenges of this production? The unexpected positives? KH: We had some interesting things stir up during this production for some of the cast. It’s not easy to be a woman! And all of the boys had never really tried, putting on that skin and maintaining ‘perfection’ in it was not an easy task. We had to work hard to make sure the look- right down to the hip pads- could support the actor’s exploration and get them to the fabulousness that would give them the confidence needed to pull off being a seasoned Drag Artist.


But because of this dedication and strength that the cast put into the production- the audience was overflowing with support, love, and excitement. I got so many letters of hope and gratitude for the message of the piece, and because of that there is a big bright future for ‘Deconstruction’. ANF: You mention religious conflicts, rejection by family, faced by drag queens. Talk a little about your views regarding these subjects. KH: I’m frustrated that anything can come between the love of a mother and her child. That was part of this story, and the truth of that still frustrates me. But religion and all of its hypocrisies have been around for a long time. For some reason, in far too many homes- kids are being rejected by their parents because they are gay. This happened to Anthony, and the fact that he was a Drag Artist drilled the hole deeper in this rejection from his mother and her misguided relationship with religion. To me that just shouldn’t happen. Anthony was lucky- he overcame this separation and found a family in the Drag Community, and in the art community.

Playwriting He knows his worth and can continue on successfully in his life. This isn’t the case with so many young Queer teens. When you have this deep down understanding of who you are and what you want, and the people you love the most on the planet are telling you that it’s wrong, that you’re an abomination- or worse… just the thought of what that can do to a young person’s heart and spirit kills me. I am a LGBT advocate. I believe all people are here for a reason and that all people deserve to be nurtured and loved for who they are. I wrote this play because I believe that. I hope that it at the very least sheds some light and hope on a very difficult divided opinion in our country. ANF: Tell us a little about Circle Circle dot dot. Its mission, its vision, its plan for the future. KF: Mission: Circle Circle dot dot engages audiences by creating original Theatre devised from the stories of our community. We allow each new development to be entirely collaborative and inclusive with a broad scope of the art world. We do this to bring Theatre back to the root of what has always made it important: the ability to allow the world to see and understand itself through stimulating, informative, and highly entertaining art. Our vision and plan for the future is to continue doing just that. As of now we have 3 plays under our belt and a kick-off season full of readings, workshops, and fundraisers. This first year was about seeing if we could find a home in San Diego. It would appear that we did just that from the reception and growth of our audience. The second year will be about continuing to tell great stories with more and more professionalism and grace while figuring out how to turn this company into a full-time job for many of us. We are filing for our non-profit, we have been accepted to the 2013 NYC Fringe Festival (with ‘Deconstruction’), and we are collaborating with a couple of different companies in town. We also have 3 new productions planned for our season, and limitless possibilities for smaller side projects. We just want to grow and make a life of this wonderful work for ourselves. Every day I have had the opportunity to work for Circle Circle dot dot has been a dream, it’s now time to turn this dream into a career.

All photos from production of ‘Deconstruction of a Drag Queen.’


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With the city of San Diego as a backdrop fashion designer Borris Powell and actress Natalie Gal collaborate on a dazzling photo shoot as bright as the California Sun

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his journey

I don’t like talking about myself.

To me it’s one of the hardest things to do. I think I’d rather be lost in a dark forest, LOL! Okay, well that’s a bit dramatic, but that’s one of the challenges that I’ve had to work hard on and will have to for the rest of my life. I had a very interesting and healthy upbringing even though I’m a product of a split family. My parents divorced when I was two and my mother raised my brother and me as a single parent. I saw my dad from time to time being that my home town had about four to five traffic lights at that time. We didn’t grow up having material things, but we had love, food on our table, and a roof over our heads. This is what I remember my mother saying all the time. My brother and I started to work with the summer school programs as teens so that we could help our mother with bills and our school clothes. I guess this is where I’ve acquired my workaholic attitude. First and foremost, I’m a very happy person. I like to deliver and keep the peace, love laughter at all times. A silent room is a deadly room to me. I have to always have music on in my studio and if it’s my beloved Whitney Houston all the better. I would have to say my love for music is what truly shaped me into the person that I’ve become. I grew up in high school band and then off to university band, and finally in the drum and bugle corps. During these years I learned discipline and teamwork. Here is where I first learned that what I’ve always wanted to do had a name. The summer of 1995, I was marching with a corps by the name of The Cavaliers located in Rosemont, Illinois. This is where I met my very first fashion designer. I spent the next few hours following him around viewing his sketches and watching him fit my teammates. I completely zoned out—I realized that is what I was supposed to be — until I was yelled at to return to the field. This started my journey and path to become a fashion designer. Since it was in Chicago where I truly found myself, this is where I moved to pursue fashion. I’ve never looked back. From that moment forward everything was calculated to get to where I am today. My challenges have been the learning curve and bumps of starting you own business without any formal training. I’m a self-taught designer, and although I attended university, I was only there for three semesters before I knew I needed to hit the road and travel to find the true me. We all have these bumps but


my take on them is that they are presented to us to show us life’s lessons and how to overcome them. Without lessons how does one grow stronger? Some of my successes: the biggest is to be holding the title of The Oscar’s Designer Challenge Winner of 2011 presented at the Academy Awards in Los Angeles for my dress The Black Swan; secondly, leaving my full-time job in retail management after 10 years with one company to open up my very own studio. I am now working on opening several more stores. I’ve also had the pleasure of working with some major athletes as well as diva musicians. My journey has been a very long road and at times a bit lonely. Thank god I like myself or I’m not sure what I what have done at times :o). Six years ago I took a sewing class at JoAnne Fabric Store. It was a 10 week course and my instructor, and now good friend, started to mentor me privately while I was working as a full-time manager in the retail industry. I started to set even higher goals, the first one being to stage a fashion show only 10 months after learning how to turn on the sewing machine. The thing that had to give was my social life. It went from going out three to four days out of the seven to none at all from eight months to over a year at a time. I lost a lot of my friends for a while. I still may not have the original relationships with some but I now have my baby that I built from the ground up. I don’t regret the path that I chose because it was the only way I saw it working out. The next five years were me sleeping at midnight and waking at 5 am to start my journey. If I had to be at work at 7 am, I worked from 5am until it was time to run out the door and make it there with seconds to spare. Then back home to work until midnight. If I had to be at work at noon or 1 pm, I would work from 5am until it was time to run out the door and do it all over and over again until I was able to leave that job. I’m not saying that it was easy, but after a while my body got so used to it that it ran on autopilot. To this day, no matter what my body will generally wake at 5 am. We know what the fashion Industry can be like. Some days it will love you and others it will toss you to the fashion wolves. So this leads me to tell every aspiring designer the same: know yourself, your vision and stick to it. Be strong, prepared to work very hard, and to sacrifice a ton. But if it’s your true passion then anything that you give up will be worth it and you’ll never be blind about it being any other

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designer borris powell way. The main thing that I tell everyone is the true work that’s involved. Fashion is a business more so than an art. If you’re getting into it for the glitz and glamour, what you see on the television, and the 12 minute fashion shows, don’t bother! Because the other things will crush you. Like the 1:30 am calls that something isn’t right and you have to get up and drive to the burbs to correct it; or the weeks that you have to drive to the burbs five times out of the seven days because someone may have done something incorrectly. I have had a ton of success h aving only done this six years and no education in the industry. I’ve had a dress at the Oscars; I’ve dressed a Grammy nominee and a major male athlete before I even launched a men’s line; dressed a big vocalist; I’m often asked to return to local media to dish on fashion; I’ve shown in London’s Fashion Week, and in New York’s Fashion Week several times; I’ve been showing my selfproduced shows since my very first show which took place only 10 months after learning how to sew. I’ve heard

that my fashion show is one of the most highly anticipated events of Chicago. That makes me smile and blush every time every time I hear that. I can’t answer what makes my work unique this is something that only others can answer for me. I just love what I do when I’m bringing my very own vision to life. I like my work to reflect clean lines with a bit of a sex appeal. I want my work to enhance the inner beauty of you. I want my work to be known as wearable art. Something that makes you feel amazing inside and out. Something that you can put on five or ten years later and feel as amazing as the first day you wore it. I’ve learned so much in this industry. I’ve learned that appreciation and disappointment can come in the same day. I’ve learned who I am as a person, to grow thicker skin because you can’t and will not please everyone and you must go on. I’ve learned that I couldn’t do anything else and that my original gut feeling was correct by advising me to give this all that I have.


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With a sweet demeanor, classical theatrical training and immense talent, Natalie Gal is certainly making a name for herself in Hollywood.

acting Her eyes have a sensitivity and tenderness that can convey the deepest emotions yet she has the range to play the tough, confident troublemakers. Her looks have been compared to a young Angelina Jolie, and her rigorous classical training in theatre and music have set the stage for her to take a place among the rising young stars in the film industry. She studied acting at the Moscow Art Theatre and New York University and is fluent in four languages (Russian, Ukranian, Spanish, and English). Only in her early twenties, Natalie has already travelled the world for her numerous film and modeling assignments. She has starred in multiple movie productions and modeled for various brands including Chanel, Alexander Wang, Prada, and Victoria’s Secret. Last seen in the films Ancient Enemy and Salt, her exotic looks, intelligence, humor, and charming personality are certain to captivate audiences. ANF How did you become interested in acting? NG My father was an actor and opera singer so in some ways it came naturally but in other ways it put a lot of pressure on me to work harder than others later in life. In school we had an amazing full-time theater where everyone who wanted to participate had a part. Starting out, I used to do a lot of classical theater, including plays from Greek, Roman or medieval times to 19th and 20th century existential dramas. ANF What do you like better, theatre acting or movie acting? NG They are completely different animals. I absolutely adore and tremendously respect theater but movies are a lot of fun and part of it is the traveling and reaching out to bigger audiences. ANF What types of roles do you prefer? NG I love playing strong, tough women, who change perceptions of how a woman should look or behave. I like to challenge myself and surprise others. ANF How do you try to improve your acting skills? NG I work hard, acting is my life. I have a private tutor and I’m a part of an acting studio and a theater. Skills and success definitely do not come easy. In a way, I am a minority in Hollywood: with my exotic look and accented speech it can be a bit tough to be as competitive as others, but that’s what makes it more interesting. Who wants an easy ride? ANF What are some of your favorite characters that you have portrayed? NG I like smart girls, very sharp and intimidating, aggressive and risk-taking. Maybe that’s because deep inside I’m shy and timid. ANF Are you working on any current projects? NG My new feature is called Delirium and it’s going to be shot in May and June in Europe and Jerusalem, as well as USA. I’m extremely excited to be a part of great and talented cast who I’ve met just recently and already love and respect. ANF What are your strong points as an actor? NG I try to be honest with my audience and bring connection and realism to the scene. That can be a big challenge because every one of us can be a little bit of a liar. ANF Do you think you have the potential to carry a film on your shoulders? NG We will say the future is best indicator of that don’t you agree? ANF Who is your favorite actor? NG I adore Johnny Depp, and Helena Bonham-Carter, the intensity and levels of their characters are great. I love Kate Winslet and Nicole Kidman, and am fascinated by Meryl Streep. I also have a big girl crush on Keira Knightly. ANF Name a director you would like to work with… NG James Cameron, Tim Burton, Martin Scorsese, Sofia Coppola and many, many others.


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Dwain Hathaway, Beyond the Glory By Carlos Eduardo Gutierrez





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Dwain Hathaway’s life could be described as a bad country western song. Dwain, a native of Claremont, New Hampshire, is an instrumentalist, singer/songwriter based in Imperial Beach, Ca. A self-taught musician in guitar and piano, he began performing in high school. Guitar was his first instrument although he later learned to play piano and drums. A simple trip to a yard sale was a turning point in young Dwain’s life.

In 1985, his career began to take a different direction. Moving to Nashville, Tennessee, he began a new adventure as a drive time disk jockey working for the radio station WDKN in Dixon, Tennessee. Dwain continued working as a disc jockey for WDKN until 1988 at which time he moved back to New Hampshire where he continued his success as a radio disk jockey working for WCLB radio station (Now WKIB).

“My father took me to a yard sale and he bought me my first instrument, the guitar,” said Dwain, “That is where it all started,” he added. His first band experience began during his high school years as a drummer performing with a 12 piece band known as Stop, Look, Listen.

In 1994, He moved to Orlando, Florida, performing with a Christian band, serving as worship leader and bass player. Later that year, he returned to play bass with his former band, The John Penny Band, performing with country singer Jodee Messina and all the while doing voiceovers for commercials. Dwain’s success garnered him many music awards including the title of “Male Vocalist of the Year” Awards Association. Dwain Hathaway had made his mark in the music world; however, no amount of success could prepare him for what was to follow. On September of 1995 while driving to Walt Disney world in Orlando, Florida for a scheduled show appearance, a semi-truck running a red light t-boned Hathaway as he was making a turn. “When the semitruck struck me, I looked over my right side and all of a sudden, the grill of the truck was staring right at my face. It was the scariest moment of my life.”

After high school in 1975, he moved to Boston, MassaHe performed with the band for six years, doing house gigs, six nights a week at Holiday Inns in White River Junction, Vermont. Throughout the 1980’s, he toured with bands such as the Stan Jr. Show and the John Penny Band, performing with country stars such as

The collision was nearly fatal, leaving him with internal injuries ranging from broken ribs to a punctured lung. Following 8 weeks of healing and therapy, he

with these people was the highlight of my career,” said Dwain, “the stars were instrumental in the success,” he added.


During a scheduled band rehearsal, he soon found out his accident caused more damage than anyone expected.



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“While rehearsing, I began singing the music piece we were working on and to my surprise, my voice began to crack and fade, making it impossible to sing,” says Dwaine. His symptoms began to worsen as time went by, “I could not keep up a simple conversation.” The cause of his symptoms remained a mystery for nearly a decade. Finally, in 2005, an answer to his medical condition was revealed. A doctor diagnosed him with spasmodic dysphonia, a form of dystonia in which the muscles around the vocal chords spasm, leading to break down. Seeking help, Dwain joined the Dystonia of San Diego Advocacy Support Group where he met others with dystonia and realized that he was not alone. In time, he accepted his voice loss and began another comeback by enrolling at Southwestern College in Chula Vista and majoring in music. He realized that he could contribute to music in other ways than just being a vocalist.

During his studies, he discovered that he has a talent for musical composition. A new adventure began for him, as he created a new ‘identity’ for himself as an instrumentalist and composer. Dwain Hathaway graduated with honors with an A.A. degree in Music in May 2008 and was distinguished with the highest honor at SWC, The Student of Distinction Award.


Today, he is the proud owner of Sea Bean Studios West where he specializes in instrumental instruction ranging from guitar, drums, to piano. He also continues to perform as bass player for a country band called Ward James Band. Instructors face many challenges, and so does Hathaway as he recently began teaching piano to a four year old autistic boy, Tony Peavey. Teaching Peavey is a whole different ballgame than teaching a student without a disability. “My main challenge with sound. He reacts well to the sound of music.” Dealing with dystonia is a daily challenge as he has been denied disability twice. “Communication among people can be very overwhelming, due to not being understood and having to repeat myself.” Most musicians play for the love and/or glory, but Dwain Hathaway’s mission is beyond the glory. Hathaway has set out to educate the world about dystonia. His

main inspiration has been Billy McLaughlin, a musician who despite being right handed now plays guitar with his left hand, due to complications from his own joined forces, educating audiences and raising money for research that may one day lead to a cure. During the fundraising concerts, both musicians share their stories about tragedy and triumph, while passing out literature. With their tireless effort, dystonia may one day be a disease of the past.

Art Of SD Living What is Dystonia? Dystonia is a neurological movement disorder in which sustained muscle contractions cause twisting and repetitive or abnormal positions. Spasmodic Dysphonia aects the muscles of the larynx. It causes the voice to sound broken, become hoarse, at times reducing it to a whisper. There is no known cure for Dystonia.




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Magical Realism:

Paintings of Still-Lifes by Sonja ter Heijden

Delfgauw, Netherlands - Hi, I am Sonja, I am going to tell you about my career as a painter which was a long hard road. I am a self-taught artist and have no studio, I paint in my bedroom. But first I have to tell you about my first career which was to raise my children. When I was young I thought life was fun and easy, but life isn´t easy at all. When I had three children and the youngest was nearly six years I divorced. Two years later I was surprised to be pregnant again and I wasn´t in a steady relationship. I was single when my fourth one was born and living on welfare. It was not easy for my children, we did not always have potato chips and Coca-Cola but we had a lot of love. Now my children are grown up and have good jobs, all except my youngest, who is 16 years old and still at school and living with me.

‘ My idea for subject matter was to make a personal combination that included magic, nature, Delft Blue pottery with a wink to the old masters”. 66

About seven years ago, my second child left the house to go live on his own. Suddenly, I realized there would be a day when they all would be gone and my house would be empty. I wasn’t happy with that thought. I taught many life lessons to my children, one of them was: if you want something, if you desire something, when it is in your heart and mind, you have to go for it, you have to do everything to reach your goal.   Then I thought about myself and wondered: what if I reached my goal of raising my children until they were adults? After that, where, what, and who was Sonja? At that moment I became tired of only being a mother. I did not work. Because of my health, it wasn’t possible to have a full-time job and I was still living on welfare. Because of that I made it a habit to browse the advertisement flyers every week seeking cheap shoppings deals. Sometime in November of 2005 I saw “paint and brushes” in a flyer and thought, ‘Can it be possible for me to paint?’  When there was no euro in Europe, the Dutch had guldens. My father once gave me 100 guldens to spend on myself. I was not allowed to spend it on my children, he told me to save it for the moment I really wanted something special. So I put it in a vase for years. The Euro came and I went from having 100 guldens to 50 Euro.The paint in the

Painting flyer was cheap and I thought that if I ever wanted to sell my paintings I should buy good paints and good brushes. Not the most expensive paint but good paint, because first of all, I had to find out IF I could paint. When I was a child I liked to draw. At my children’s school, where I volunteered, I was creative with a lot of things. So a little plan came into my mind and I bought acrylic paint, canvas and cheap brushes. That’s the moment my painting career started. I started with big flowers and simple still lifes, it was nice to see but not special. If I wanted to be an exceptional painter I had to create more beautiful paintings and the acrylic paint did not work in combination with my mind and hand. I asked for help from painters on the internet.  I sent many emails, just one answered back to me. A painter does not tell secrets about his paintings I suppose. So after one year of painting with acrylic paint, I decided to buy oil paint. The masters of the 17th century painted with oil paint and I love their paintings. When I began with oil paint I had to know what I wanted, I had to have a style figure in my paintings, so it would be recognizable for the viewers. If you see a Picasso, you know it is a Picasso so I had to find out what I loved. I was born in Delft, a city well known for its Delft Blue pottery. I remember liking this pottery when I visited my grandmother’s house. My other interest at that time was the oriental life of the Middle East so I decided to paint Delft Blue pottery with harem women. It is a strange combination but nice to see and I was hoping it could be the eyecatcher. After a few paintings and hearing the comments from my family and friends, I understood that it was not a good combination. In addition, it did not gave me the satisfaction I wanted. So, I began a portrait of my grandchild.

I decided to paint just still lifes with Delft Blue pottery and ‘nature’ inspired designs, because I love nature. Nature photography by “Els van Kaam”


I wanted to make an icon of Delft Blue pottery. When I was painting the Blue Mask, a painting you can see on my website, I accidentally found the meaning of my paintings I call it ‘The Blue Secret’. Using the internet, I found that some painters paint on masonite.The structure of the canvas I was currently using was holding me back from making more detailed work. I went to several shops but could not find it and I forgot about it for a while. At the beginning of 2007, I met a painter in Delft who used masonite and I saw his paintings. He explained to me the positive features of the material and I began to paint on masonite as soon as I found a shop that could order it for me. In 2007 I won the second prize in a contest of 100 artists organized by a garage. I had a little exhibition but did not sell anything. Because I did not know how everything works in the art scene (I am still learning) and I did not know anything about art and artists, I knew I had to paint more beautifully. I decided to paint just still lifes with Delft Blue pottery and ‘nature’


inspired designs, because I love nature. I did not want to make copies of the old masters of the 17th century, so I had to find a way to make my own originals. When I was 15 years old I liked the paintings of Carl Willink and a Delft painter, Johan Hermsen, who made beautiful, magical paintings. My idea for subject matter was to make a personal combination that included magic, nature, Delft Blue pottery with a wink to the old masters. Then I discovered the international history of Delft Blue pottery. It seems that porcelain came to Delft from China at the beginning of the seventeenth century to the West. So for me, in Delft Blue pottery the East and West, the blue color of heaven and the clay of the earth become integrated through craftmanship. I wanted to make an icon of Delft Blue pottery. When I was painting the Blue Mask, a painting you can see on my website, I accidentally found the meaning of my paintings I call it ‘The Blue Secret’.


I began with very little paintings, just a vase, a flower or some fruit. The use of pure red sable brushes in combination with the masonite was great. My paintings became bigger, my ideas were sometimes overwhelming for myself. I did not know what happened in my mind but I enjoyed it. Even the times when the paint did not do what I wanted, even when I was crying in front of my easel and thinking it was not possible for me to learn it, I was enjoying painting. Day after day I learned more about making a painting, how much paint I had to put on my brush, the thickness in combination with linseed oil, to draw a design. It is hard working to make a beautiful oil painting. It was such a fight but also a victory when I thought the painting was finished. In the summer of 2010 I was making a design on a big panel, it was a very emotional design. I gave it the title “I Never Promised You a Rose Garden”. For three weeks I was all day drawing well into the summer evening. It was half past ten and the darkness came, I had to stop with drawing. I put my pencil down and walked two steps backwards to see what my drawing looked liked..... I looked and suddenly tears ran down my cheeks. I could not understand how it was possible for me to draw what was in my mind, by my arm, my hand and the pencil that went on the panel. I was overwhelmed by emotions because now I understood that if I could paint this like it was in my mind, I was somebody, I could do something. I was not only a mother. I was really an artist! It was my biggest panel so far and for me like a rebirth. I knew painting this panel was my door to the future. In February 2011 I sent an email to the museum, The Prinsenhof in Delft, asking if it was possible to have an exhibition. A miracle happened and for two months I had an exhibition at the museum, all the media were interested and even national television. I have to go on and have to learn so many things about being a painter and selling my paintings. After all the heavy years of taking care for my four children, the struggle to live with little money and all the problems I had to solve by my own, I found my destiny. I had to prove to myself that I exist. I am so happy I can paint. Painting is my breath, my life, I enjoy, I live! I think I will never reach my limit, the most beautiful paintings aren’t painted yet!

If you want to see my Blue Secret, go to my website It is about time the world knows the new trend in oil painting!


ArtsNFashion Magazine Summer Issue 2012