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For Immediate Release Hannah Albee

My daughter, the introvert, spent most of her first fourteen years keeping words inside her mouth. On her birthday, she ran out of room and stopped eating. A month and a half later, on Mardi Gras, Fat Tuesday: a syringe delivers solutions of water, salt, and sugar to a feathery vein in her arm. Heated blankets ready to crush the twigs left of her limbs. She kept the birdfeeders full this winter.  We watched the birds populate the maple and pear tree, turning snow brown with a splatter of seed pods. An old woman behind the curtain, with dementia, bleats like a goat, “oh-oh-oh!” A catheter extracts fluid from her bladder. We hear her daughter’s voice, steady and strong, say, “It’ll be over soon Ma”. But the undulating voice visits from time to time, for the duration of our evening emergency room visit.  My daughter and son stare at each other, creating a new private joke, suppressing laughter, silently mouthing mimicries each time the woman bleats. I am in an emergency room with my children, one who is starving, my ex-husband, a goat, and her kid on Mardi Gras. “oh-oh-oh!” Is this how dissipation happens?   The parading cast of specialists announce her body is “catabolic.” Marionette Words dance alongside:

cannibal       catacombs              diabolic        catheter catabolic             catatonic         cathartic Un – metabolic: the body feeds itself with i t s e l f. When the body feeds itself on muscle, sooner or later it will find its own heart.

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The summer issue of Apeiron Review, a Philadelphia-based literary magazine, is ready for you and a glass of your favorite beverage. Cool off...