at a time). The Courses I have signed up for are called: Video, Game Design and App Design. Unfortunately I have missed two of them which were Animation and Photo Imagery (photo manipulation) but oh well that’s no massive loss. I really hope that they do a web design or some courses aimed more at graphic designers (on the software InDesign, Illustrator and others like these that would suit me a little better). I had Josh and Sam come into my room earlier when I was working, and they did nothing but distract me for about an hour or so. For the rest of the day I have been working in my sketch book designing publication pages for my pretend brief. (IM REALLY EXCITED FOR THESES ADOBE COURSE’S).
23:00 13th Feb 2014 So far I have been in a good mood, no urges, needs or wants. I have powered on with plenty of work and had a lovely time on Skype with my mum. We went through this diary together to clean up all the spelling mistakes and grammar (I don’t mean to offend anyone on this bit). Me, my mum and Emma have all had a big discussion about the chance of me being dyslexic, they want me to go for a test but if I’m honest I don’t really see the point, I go there to find out I might have minor dyslexia and for some smart ass to tell me I can’t read off white paper, I do know people with dyslexia and they have received a lot of help, even my own brother has slight dyslexia. I suppose the only reason I don’t want to do it is because up until now, I have been able to skip the “do you have any disabilities” section on questionaries’ or applications and I already hate them! I dislike all paperwork in this format so when I do it, I do it as fast as I can, and the thought of another section just irritates me more. Since my last post not too much more has happened other
than we have had tea (chicken Kiev’s, mash and mixed veg). Tonight is my last night and tomorrow my last morning where I have to battle through the tar like craving that gets me every morning. After the morning’s I’m perfectly fine, in fact I have been rather giddy, happy and joyful most of the day. Emma is going to be staying with me again tonight because we are both up in the morning at 8am. All I have left to do now is the long lecture, and I think there is a seminar but as soon as that clock hits 12 I am “done” or at least I can have a cig. 08:29 14th Feb 2014 I had a semi good night’s sleep, I woke up a couple of times but that was about it really. Today is the last day of my ego, and I get a fag at 12 today (if I’m free to have one) but also it is kind of sad, I mean it’s sad that I gave myself a deadline for my ego, I will definitely not be going back to how I was, I’m going to keep up all of my ego bar smoking, I’m going to allow myself a fizzy drink every so often (as a reward) but keep a max of 2 - 3 a week that way I won’t get addicted to them again, as I once was. Anyhow I’m off to my lecture now, the sooner that is done the sooner I can have a cig (if I can get some). I will report later (after the ego).
12.30 14th Feb 2014 So I have made it to the end. I have just had my first cig since Monday and the whole thing has been an amazing experience. I have decided to keep up with the rest of the ego ideas that I came up with. I found that the lecture today was great, but without the break and fresh air I found it hard to concentrate towards the end, and that affected my note taking. Over all this week has been great I have had my ups and downs but the key thing is, is that I did it, only slipping once or twice. This is the last entry I will make to this diary and I think I have been able to put a good end to what was a rough hard start. The End
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