After the Pause: Winter 2017

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my bathroom floor to learn: you do not love your Vivian. You love only what your Vivian can provide you. You might protest. You might say that you’ve proven your love for her by giving her gifts. Perhaps you have given your Vivian gifts but if you’re reading this pamphlet, you haven’t given your Vivian the gift he really wants. The gift your Vivian really wants is the hardest one for you to give. It is not a signed copy of Blood Meridian, it is not your driver’s license cut in half, it is not a severed ear. The gift your Vivian really wants is the knowledge that you are not obsessed with him any longer. Do you love your Vivian enough to give her that?