LOST FREEDOM January 2013
an inspirational photomagazine themed "winter"
the winter issue LOST FREEDOM vol. 2, issue iii | january 2013 january 2013 000 1 3 4 WINTER 2 5 1. Emmanuel Rosario // 2. Karen Jules // 3. Veronika Anna // 4. Maya Rafie // 5. Cameron G. Alyssa Jiosa losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 STAFF EDITOR IN CHIEF LAYOUT DESIGNER Angela WU CO-EDITOR Natalie CHYI PHOTOGRAPHERS Christine AI Kristy BERGERON Charley GREENFIELD IVY NINE DESIGNS Andrew MARKOWITZ Alex PHILIPPS Christine POLZ Makeda SANDFORD FIND US AROUND ISSUU http://issuu.com/lostfreedom FACEBOOK http://facebook.com/lostfreedommagazine MAGCLOUD http://magcloud.com/user/lostfreedom FLICKR http://flickr.com/groups/lostfreedom TUMBLR http://lostfreedommag.tumblr.com 8TRACKS http://8tracks.com/lostfreedom EMAIL email@example.com january 2013 005 contents 008 | Editor’s Note 010 | Julia TROTTI 016 | Clarissa COSTA 022 | Bright Eyes by Alex PHILLIPS 030 | Jenna WANG 032 | Jacqueline RIMAN 038 | Ice Princess by Christine POLZ* 044 | Taila FORBES 050 | Into the Wind by Christine AI 058 | April ROSE 065 | Winter: A Playlist 066 | It’s Not Spring... by IVY NINE DESIGNS 074 | Nicholai GO 080 | The Wildest Flower by Charley GREENFIELD 086 | Joanna GALUSZKA 090 | Melanie KIEB 094 | Love and Reverie by Makeda SANDFORD 100 | Julia CHEW 106 | Howl, The Wind by Andrew MARKOWITZ 112 | Lisa-Marie KASPAR 118 | Becoming Winter by Kristy BERGERON * Cover photo taken by Christine Polz 008 032 022 066 010 050 058 086 038 094 100 112 Arina Vital Sarah Evers dear readers, I’m always horrible at writing these editor’s notes and usually I just skip them altogether, but it’s a new year so I figured why not? I usually am not much for new year’s resolutions and all that jazz, especially since I can never keep them, but this year I am determined to try my hardest and do my best (whatever that means). So, winter, huh? To be honest, I’m not a big fan of cold weather and definitely prefer autumn to winter without a doubt, but as a child, winter was always my favorite season. Living in the north for the first 10 years of my life, winter meant snow. Despite the cold, I loved being outside with my friends: sledding, having snow ball fights, building snowmen, you name it. Now however, living in a city where it rarely snows, winter means balling up on a couch at home, re-reading my favorite novels, and drinking lots of tea and coffee. I try to avoid the cold weather at all costs, which turns out to be pretty easy, although that also means a lack of photos. For those of you who are able to go out in the winter, sometimes even in the snow, just for the sake of taking a photo, I applaud and envy you. It amazes me what many young photographers are able to do with a snowy scene, and I know I’ll never be able to create anything that beautiful. On a separate note, I often forget that even though most of us are living in winter, it’s summer in some places as well. Throughout this issue, there’ll be a good mix of winter-y photos along with some that aren’t so, since it’s not currently winter everywhere around the world. I hope through this issue, whoever may be reading this, finds a spark of inspiration to create and explore new places and ideas. from your editor-in-chief, Angela Wu Julia Trotti 20 years // sydney, austrlia http://www.juliatrotti.com LOST FREEDOM: Tell us a little bit about yourself. How old are you and where are you from? JULIA TROTTI: I am a 20 year old fashion photographer from the sunny suburbs of Sydney, Australia. I first picked up a camera at age sixteen and it was since then that I fell in love with it! How did you first become interested in photography? How do you think photography has changed you? I first became interested in photography from the moment I picked up a camera. I realised I loved taking portraits of people in the opposite way magazines and online articles would tell you to. I preferred taking photos of my modelâ€™s and subjects in the moment in between; when they were slightly distracted or in between a movement of brushing their hair from their face. Now that I am a photographer, I spend a lot of time staring out of the car window wander-lusting at all the lovely locations we drive past and thinking how many lovely shoots I could host in each of them. I have always been a dreamer though, I think photography just gave me something to do with my curiosity of exploring places and getting to know people! Model: Shannon Lawson // Hair and Makeup: Megan Vaughan // Clothing: Oh Deer Boutique // january 2013 011 Do you often plan your shoots before hand? If so, how do you think your final images reflect these planned ideas? When I shoot, I plan a general idea of what I want to aim for and who I want to work with (model, hair, makeup and styling wise), but apart from that, I like to arrive at our destination and just create magic as it happens naturally. Is there a certain style you try to achieve? Movement and youth are two things that I love to capture in my photography. In order to take photos of the moment in between, I need to have lots of movement in my photos. And as for youth, I like to add cheeky poses of girls running around and balancing on road curb-sides. How do you think location impacts your work? I think shooting in natural locations such as the beach or in forests or in fields of grass really helps add a more natural and carefree vibe to my images. What are some things that inspire you? Absolutely everything inspires me - discovering a lovely location, music, movies, conversations with people, colours and the sky. Model: Naomi Wilson // Makeup: Rebecca Jayne // Stylist: Leah Thompson @ Sevven // losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 january 2013 013 Model: James von Wilson // Stylist: Jodie Draper // // Model: Bree Fry // Makeup: Joanna Lurhs Model: Ellie Hextall // Hair and Makeup: Abbey Love // Clothing: Oh Deer Boutique // january 2013 015 20 years // I T A L Y Clarissa Costa http://clarissacosta.daportfolio.com/ losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 LOST FREEDOM: Tell us a little bit about yourself. How old are you and where are you from? CLARISSA COSTA: Hi, my name is Clarissa Costa, a 20 year old photographer based in Italy. When and why did you first become interested in photography? How do you feel you’ve changed since then? I became interested in photography when I was 14 because I used to travel a lot back then, and I wanted to catch what I saw. So the following year I got my first camera, a 5MP compact camera. Since then my passion has grown considerably. If I look back at that period, I can see that my first photos were very simple, almost ordinary. I wasn’t used to taking my time to take a picture, I wanted to do everything very fast. I think I hadn’t really mastered the art of photography yet. But I think that I still have much to learn and many things to experience. Is there a certain style you try to achieve in your photos? If so, how would you describe it? More than a style, I have a goal: behind every photo I take there is a story, and I hope that those who see my photos can find mine. My photos are characters and landscapes of fairytales, even if sometimes they are a bit dark. Who or what inspires you? Nature is my greatest muse. Novels and tales inspire me very much too, I am what you would call a bookworm. How would you describe winter? How is it important to you? To me, winter is cold frosty days, a quiet dark beauty and something that you’ll appreciate more after it’s gone. It’s a magical season, full of memories. january 2013 019 losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 january 2013 021 bright eyes PhotographY: Alex Philipps Model: Twyla Marie Garcia Hair: Leilani Borrego Assistant: Emily Frey losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 january 2013 029 Jenna Wang 15 YEARS // MICHIGAN PLEA TO ODE A period of reverent silence, we are not dead, just waiting, I am breath-holding for your sticky fingers coming to tap against my melting head my thawing heartbeat, sheathed with bluish ice, whose beating, you once told me, you knew could never last but the dewy deathly pallor of your cheek, my dear, does make you look so nice. Darling Ode: Heft away this suffocating carpet from my white face which I made so heavy that only you could lift from my aching old bones so that you would never again have to walk alone your receding footprints which trace a phantom compass into my miser’s corpse of a heart, oh, as if—as if you could ever change who I was you’re no map but I know we could walk in, we could walk into that asylum and never come out again. There is no oxygen down here, apathy taints the pigment blue. Ode, then, is that why my guilty lungs bleed for you? losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 Taila Forbes Kate Kinley Birthe Berger losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 Jacqueline Riman 23 years // New Jersey http://www.flickr.com/pacifictheme/ january 2013 033 LOST FREEDOM: Tell us a little bit about yourself. How old are you and where are you from? JACQUELINE RIMAN: I’m twenty three from suburban New Jersey. “ When and why did you first become interested in photography? How do you feel you’ve changed since then? During my sophomore year of college I received a camera. It became an escape for my emotions, thoughts and dreams. My photography molds as my psyche explores itself and my relationship to the world around. It’s an endless cycle. My photography molds as my psyche explores itself and my relationship to the world around. It’s an endless cycle. “ Is there a certain mood you try to achieve through your photos? I always try to go with my gut. What motivates you to create? People, beauty, questions What is your favorite winter memory? As a child my school would pile leftover snow behind its playground. It amounted to giant piles that looked like glittering kingdoms. I’d create wild winding trails that looped around the meandering hills to sled down. Eventually the piles iced over and the trails I made became fast and slick. I’d dream about sledding down those trails all day until I got out of class. january 2013 035 losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 january 2013 037 ice princess PhotographY: Christine Polz Model: Stefanie Steffen Hair/Make Up: Michaela Kireta january 2013 039 losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 january 2013 041 january 2013 043 Taila Forbes 19 years // New zealanD h t t p : / / w w w . f l i c k r . c o m / 4 4 7 6 3 6 9 2 @N 0 5 / losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 january 2013 045 LOST FREEDOM: Tell us a little bit about yourself. How old are you and where are you from? TAILA FORBES: My name is Taila Forbes and I am a 19 year old student living in Christchurch, New Zealand. Christchurch is also known as the ‘Garden City’ for its abundance of public gardens and parks which prove to be great for landscapes and inspiration. However, over the past couple of years most of the internal city has been destroyed by high magnitude earthquakes and the devastation has been an obstacle from many perspectives as the people try to recover what has been lost; though strictly speaking in regards to photography, most of the city is cordoned off and labelled as ‘red zoned’ (unsafe) which is challenging at times when you are looking for new places to shoot. When and why did you first become interested in photography? How do you feel you’ve changed since then? I started getting into photography when I was about 12, but not too seriously. My family and I moved to New Zealand from Australia and trying to find the means to entertain yourself in a strange city where you don’t know anyone was difficult, so I started investing in disposable cameras. I think that was when my photography was the most carefree; I would take photographs of what I was eating, windows, my pets – whatever I saw, I took a photo of. My parents got frustrated with the lack of quality (aka nice, generic family shots they could put in frames) and stopped paying for my losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 prints so I pushed photography to the side. My grandfather then gave me a point and shoot when I was 13 and I used that to take photographs of my bedroom and friends, and then when I started working when I was 15, I started to take photography a little more seriously. Eventually I bought a DSLR and my photography focus moved more inward than outward; to elucidate, I focused more on photographing what I was feeling on the inside as opposed to what I was seeing on the outside. Is there a certain style you try to achieve in your photos? If so, how would you describe it? The one thing I struggle most with in regards to my photography is I cannot see my own style. My friends and family tell me that I have one, but I myself canâ€™t see it. I think itâ€™s because each photograph I take is a representation of one specific feeling, moment and song all combined into a photograph that represents that as best I can. Every piece is incredibly personal and comes from somewhere deep within me and if you were to put one of them in front of me, I could tell you where my head was at in that moment, what I was trying to achieve and most probably the song that I attached to it. I donâ€™t think I can pinpoint one particular style because everything changes with each day, but I will just say that I try to shoot as honestly as possible, and really portray what I am feeling and whatever style that reads as, that is the style I will shoot in. january 2013 047 a song, and I can see “Ithehearphotograph in my mind.“ losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 What motivates you to create? I can be motivated by just about anything. One of my main sources of inspiration that never fails me is music. Music had been the biggest part of my life from the age of about 8 to 16, and only when I started getting interested in photography did I lose focus on it. I sing, play piano and have taught myself some basic guitar and nothing ever seems to really pull at my emotions quite like music does. As I explained it to a friend once, ‘I hear a song, and I can see the photograph in my mind.’ It gets quite ridiculous actually, because then that song is forever attached to the photograph, but I can’t enjoy the song again until I’ve taken the photograph, so it’s a catch 22 really! It’s like after you study a film in high school, it’s hard to watch it again without remembering all of the notes and essays you wrote about one character movement in one particular scene. The process used to bother me but then I just reminded myself that photography is work, it is important and it can’t always be easy. You have to make sacrifices, and I sacrifice that simple relationship with many bands/novels/places because I complicate them by entwining them in the massive web that is my creative inspiration. It can be challenging, but it’s just part of my character now; I can’t love anything for what it is, I have to deconstruct it and put it back together over and over until it is a little piece of me. What is your favorite winter memory? One of the main reasons I wanted to contribute to this issue is because of my relationship with winter. I grew up in Sydney and was exposed to extremely hot and dehydrating climates for the majority of my life. When I moved to Christchurch, the weather change was drastic. Christchurch is unpredictable – the sky will be clear and scorching hot in the morning, and hailing in the afternoon. The summers are short, the spring barely warm, and winter and autumn go on forever. It isn’t so much extreme temperatures as it is just dull, grey and harrowingly lifeless. Christchurch weather can be extremely monotonous, and my body has never adjusted to it. The main side effect of vitamin D deficiency is depression, and it has hit me hard since living here. I used to stay in bed all winter, staring out the windows and hoping for a change. The way that I started to cope with it though was through photography. I started to see that the grey skies gave great lighting for photography, without the overexposure of direct sunlight. I noticed the eerie, silent atmosphere that overcast weather can give you, which matched perfectly to my crestfallen state of mind. Thus, I started to use winter to my advantage. When I felt at my most sad and vulnerable, I used the weather as the backdrop for my emotions. This year it snowed the heaviest I’ve seen in my life, and I spent the three days off from work that we were given with my boyfriend, sitting inside, watching movies, drinking tea, and watching the soft, snowflakes fall from the cloudy sky. They were so perfect, like little crafts made in the clouds and sent down to me for inspiration. We would dress up in our onesies (mine the character of Totoro from the Japanese film ‘My Neighbour Totoro’, upon during this time my boyfriend christened me ‘Snowtoro’) and go outside and play in the snow and take photographs and it was the most blissful winter experience I have ever had. It was in those few days that I knew I could learn to love winter, as long as it continued to give me that beautiful, silent, untouched aesthetic that I could use as endless inspiration. into the wind Photography: Christine AI Model: Kimmy Helski Brown Hair And Make up: Azure Ellis // Assistant: Bill Liu losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 january 2013 051 LOST FREEDOM: Tell us a little bit about yourself. How old are you and where are you from? CHRISTINE AI: My name is Christine but I’m better known as ‘Cai’ (Before you ask – it’s my initials). I’m twenty years young based in Sydney, Australia. I photograph fashion right through to the fine art of wedding photography. Growing up in a small seaside town then moving to the Hunter Valley, Australia’s wine country where I spent my most memorable years living a relatively simple childhood photography became my ‘go to’ hobby. Photography has long been a favorite past time of mine but my studies remain in my Law degree at UNSW. When and why did you first become interested in photography? How do you feel you’ve changed since then? As with many other photographers, my first camera was a film camera that was passed down to me. It was my fathers Canon 650d film camera, a sturdy little number that was given to me with one lens. I remember the first time I used it at night, measuring the light properly was a nightmare and when it was time to review the photos they were uncontrolled light leaks on almost every photo. I don’t regret my journey as a photographer, in fact I see it as the exact opposite, I consider every bad roll of film, or over-exposed shot as a steppingstone of my journey as a photographer. Even looking back at the last two years, I’ve learnt a lot and my style has unquestionably gone through a whirlwind of ups and downs. In my early days I would take my camera to my friends’ bands gigs (which by the way were tiny) that, compared to what I do now are worlds apart. losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 january 2013 055 Is there a certain style you try to achieve in your photos? If so, how would you describe it? Delicate, dreamy, young and fresh are some words that come to mind when describing my style. I like to keep my photographs simple while still delivering a story in each shot. I always keep an eye on my subjects’ emotions and I found that during any kind of portrait session it’s so important to keep the model comfortable. With a background in film I guess I kind of grew to love the result film created. Having now moved to digital photography I try to recreate that original feeling I had with film. Who or what inspires you? Oh wow such a huge question! For me, inspiration can come from so many places. I find that when I’m in a strange new place, maybe while travelling or maybe even reading a book I feel the start of something beautiful conceptually. I admire strong souls, such as Jean Dominique. I read his book “The Diving Bell and the Butterfly” recently and his story absolutely touched my heart. I fell in love with this book. I’m also taken away by my muse Patrick Wolf, a South London born singer-songwriter that stole my heart after I heard him during his first Australian tour. What is your favorite part about winter? Winter to me is about stillness. Monumental stillness. It’s that time of year when I don’t even mind waking up a little earlier just to watch the sunrise while sipping on a beautiful cup of Gyokuro Green Tea. january 2013 057 April Rose 16 years // UNiteD States http://www.flickr.com/bumblebeerider 059 january 2013 january 2013 061 LOST FREEDOM: Tell us a little bit about yourself. How old are you and where are you from? APRIL ROSE: I am an inspired 16 year old located in the Pacific Northwest. When and why did you first become interested in photography? How do you feel youâ€™ve changed since then? I first became interested in photography when one of my best friends joined Flickr; all the talent she found there and all the amazing people she had met were all she talked about so soon I joined and was inspired started taking photos with my family point and shoot camera. Eventually I had saved up enough money to buy the very camera my friend had; ever since then my camera has become my closest confident, teaching me to see the world through unimpaired eyes and live with a brave heart. Is there a certain mood you try to achieve in your photos? Photography is a way for me to express what I am afraid to feel or ashamed to admit. It continues to give me a certain kind of freedom, and I hope to convey that in the art I am able to make. Above all I hope to inspire others to be free as well. What motivates you to create? My greatest motivation to create is a â€œbreezeâ€? I often feel sweep through me, carrying all kinds of emotions and with it a certain kind of strength to create something beautiful out of them and the deep pain and beauty I feel to my core. What is your favorite winter memory? The beginning of this winter my boyfriend and I went on an adventure up the mountain together to experience the first snow. It inspired me to be so consumed by contrast-when every force around you is attempting to make you freeze but your heart is bursting from the inside out with warmth. My hands were numb until they were held by his and together we kept warm. I find that symbolic in the sense that although life can be incredibly cold and numbing there is always inspiration to be found in love, and warmth is never far from reach. january 2013 063 Romana Camenzind Hannah Laamoumi losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 WINTER: A PLAYLIST http://www.8tracks.com/lostfreedom/winter 1. Youth by DAUGTHER 2. Two Small Deaths by WYE OAK 3. Ég anda by SIGUR RÓS 4. Can You Tell by RA RA RIOT 5. Start a War by THE NATIONAL 6. You by THE 1975 7. Only Love by BEN HOWARD 8. To A Poet by FIRST AID KIT 9. Unrequited Love by LYKKE LI 10. The Wolves (Act I and II) by BON IVER 11. Smother by DAUGHTER 12. Fever Dream by IRON & WINE 13. Lions In Cages by WOLF GANG 14. Love Love Love by OF MONSTERS AND MEN 15. When I Dream by RA RA RIOT january 2013 065 it ain't spring, but i'm blossoming Photography: IVY nine Designs Bekha LAFrankie Jess Lafrankie http://www.ivynine.com.au Model: Keira Brigham @ BGM Models Hair: Rochelle-Louise january 2013 067 january 2013 069 losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 january 2013 073 Nicholai Go 20 years // The PHILIpPINES http://www.ngophotography.com/ LOST FREEDOM: Tell us a little bit about yourself. How old are you and where are you from? NICHOLAI GO: I am Nicholai Go and a proud Filipino. I am currently 20 years old and studying as an Architect in Rhode Island School of Design. Even if photography isnâ€™t my major, it will always be a strong passion of mine. When and why did you first become interested in photography? How do you feel youâ€™ve changed since then? Ever since I was young, I have always been an artist mainly working with traditional media such as drawing and painting. For me, It was always about portraying stories and experiences of mine. I first became seriously interested in photography late into my high school years, when I received my first digital camera. I felt a very strong connection to the camera because of its ability and power to convey stories with such conviction. Photography enabled me to portray my ideas and concepts, that I could not have had with drawing and painting. It changed everything for me, the way I see and the way I lead my life. In return, photography helps me better understand both the world and myself. Is there a certain mood you try to achieve in your photos? Most of my photographs are in seriesâ€™ and each of them have their own mood depending on the story that I wish to convey. What motivates you to create? My own experiences are my main motivation to create. They are the stories that I convey with my photographs. I try to dissect the human experience and its relationship with the world. How does post-processing play a role in your photography? Post-processing plays a big role in my work because it enables to me to portray my stories better than just with traditional methods. Itâ€™s a tool that I simply take advantage of. losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 january 2013 077 january 2013 079 wildest flower Photography: Charley Greenfield http://charleygreenfield.com Model: Alexia Bambi Loi Stylist: Rene Mussared losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 january 2013 085 Joanna Galuszka 21 years // Poland http://joannagaluszka.com/ LOST FREEDOM: Tell us a little bit about yourself. How old are you and where are you from? JOANNA GAŁUSZKA: I’m 21 years old girl from Poland, Cracow. Is there a certain style you try to achieve in your photos? If so, how would you describe it? I’m not sure, I think my pictures are feminine, delicate and in some ways sad. I’m sad person, I cry often and I feel a lot of, so I MUST express my soul full of emotion. When and why did you first become interested in photography? How do you feel you’ve changed since then? I can’t imagine my world without photography from 4 or 5 years. I’ve always liked to show my world prettier. I started to shoot, because I need to express myself, in this way I feel calm and I’m satisfied. Who or what inspires you? I’m extremely inspired by music and painting. Especially Antony and the Johnsons, Ella Fitzgerald, Vivaldi, Yann Tiersen, Dali, Klimt, Francous Boucher, Bosch, Rubens, Gustave Mossa... What is your favorite part about winter? I love the thick clothes, warm tea and evening with Ella Fitzgerald and my love. Winter is a special time for me, because I have my birthday in December. losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 january 2013 089 Melanie KieĂ&#x; 17 years // G e r m a n y http://www.mk-photography.net/ january 2013 091 LOST FREEDOM: Tell us a little bit about yourself. How old are you and where are you from? MELANIE KIESS: I’m Melly 17 years young and I live in Stuttgart, Germany. When and why did you first become interested in photography? How do you feel you’ve changed since then? I was like 13 years old. At first I started to take photos with the CANON from my dad. I took a lot photos from other people and landscapes. On Christmas 2008 my dad gave me my Nikon D90 and thats when I really started to love photography. There wasn’t a day when my camera wasn’t with me. So now I’m interested in fashion and portrait photography. I think my photos changed a lot as they become more and more professsional because I learn with every shoot. Is there a certain style you try to achieve in your photos? If so, how would you describe it? I just want to create something beautiful, something that remains and people could stare at like forever. Who or what inspires you? Kind of everything. The biggest source for me I think are books, nature and other photographers. What is your favorite part about winter? It’s the first morning when it snows and the sun is shining. I just love that feeling. Unfortunately we haven’t got much snow this winter so that’s kind of sad. But we had a beautiful fog time, which you can see on my pictures. losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 january 2013 093 love and reverie Photography: Makeda Sandford http://facebook.com/ makedaphotog Model: alyssa schuster losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 january 2013 099 Julia Chew 18 years // united states http://facebook.com/xiaolindesign LOST FREEDOM: Tell us a little bit about yourself. How old are you and where are you from? JULIA CHEW: My name is Juliamarie Chew, I was born in Nanning, China and I currently live in Tampa, FL. I turned 18 years old this month, and never set foot inside a school. I am very appreciative of my mother who homeschooled me and works as the manager of my business. Xiao Lin is my Chinese name. I named my line Xiaolin in remembrance of my past. (Xiaolin means â€˜Dawn Jadeâ€™) How did you first become interested in fashion design? I have always had a love for art and fashion. As a young child I would make fashion sketches, draw figures and portraits, and sew clothing for my dolls and myself. It has always been my dream to be a fashion designer and I love all aspects of fashion. When I was about 15 years old I started making custom garments for local customers. This included prom dresses, bridal, and costumes. Next, I expanded my business by designing Ready To Wear garments and accessories and selling them internationally online. This industry is very difficult to break into, but I have dabbled in many areas including fashion design, photography, and modeling. It was through runway modeling that I met connections and eventually gained recognition as a designer. Although I enjoy photography and modeling, my main goal is to be an established fashion designer, specifically a couturier. How has your style changed since you began? My aesthetic has not changed drastically since I was a child. In the past few years however, my designs have developed a higher level of intricacy. My clothing is an expression of my inner being. As I grow and change, my future style may change as well. losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 january 2013 101 “ I have always had an obsession for things that were fragile, ethereal, and sometimes a bit bizarre. “ How do you think fashion plays a role in your photography? My interest in fashion has influenced my photography work in many ways. First, my experience as a model as helped me understand that correct angles, lighting, and composition all need to work together to create a good image. Learning about fashion has also helped me choose the right models to portray specific looks in my photography projects. Being around talented people in the fashion industry, I have learned to do hair/make up on models and style my own photo shoots. Who or what inspires you? I have always had an obsession for things that were fragile, ethereal, and sometimes a bit bizarre. My perception of life is somewhat distorted. My dreams are often dark and frightening, but I sketch out my visions and use them to influence my design approach. In this manner I use my creative abilities as a method of escapism. This allows me to open my mind and create my own mental fantasy to escape from the harsh realities of this world. I also draw inspiration from nature. I have taken many trips to desolate areas to go primitive camping and enjoy peaceful time reflecting on natural beauty. I believe God’s creation is the purist form of beauty and many elements of nature are portrayed in my designs. Sheer chiffons, like delicate butterfly wings, iridescent feathers, that add drama and movement, and long gowns that flow gracefully like forest streams and waterfalls. These will be themes in my upcoming collection. What is your favorite winter memory? Seeing snow for the first time when I was a child. As I live in Florida, it was a very new and exciting experience for me. I traveled with my family to Wisconsin to visit my grandparents. I was in awe of the softly falling snowflakes and was amazed to look closely at them and see that indeed, each one was unique. losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 january 2013 103 howl, the wind Photography: Andrew Markowitz Model: Brennan Hill @ Evolution, Charlotte NC MUA: Bree Addams Stylist: Innerglow january 2013 107 losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 Lisa-Marie Kaspar 19 years // G e r m a n y h t t p : / / w w w . f l i c k r . c o m / l i s a m a r i e _k LOST FREEDOM: Tell us a little bit about yourself. How old are you and where are you from? LISA-MARIE: My name is Lisa-Marie, I am 19 years of age and I am from Germany. I am currently studying Communication Design in Mainz and I absolutely love it! Besides photography I also love drawing, English literature and baking. I guess others would call me rather boring, but I am absolutely okay with that. When and why did you first become interested in photography? How do you feel you’ve changed since then? That’s a little difficult to answer! I’ve always been interested in photography, but I never really gave it a try. In the beginning of 2012, I finally ordered my DSLR and I completely fell in love with photography ever since. To me, it means capturing all those ephemeral moments we would simply forget. Every time I look through the viewfinder and see something beautiful I feel so amazed and happy. I think I had three phases during my photographic journey so far: In the beginning, I took photos of nearly everything, in the second phase I tried to shoot conceptual stuff and manipulations and in the third phase, which I am still in now, I am slowly evolving my “final” style which is mainly about portraits of women outdoors. I also love still life and food photography, but not as much as I love portraiture. Is there a certain mood you try to achieve in your photos? I think the basic idea behind every photo of mine is to be one with nature. I love natural colours and materials and I always want to include them in my photographs. Of course, this does not apply every single photograph, I sometimes like to experiment a little, too! I’ve discovered that a lot of my photos also show some kind of melancholy, which I certainly didn’t intend, but it appeals to me. What motivates you to create? It is as simple as that: I could not live without creating something. May it be drawing, making collages, photography or something else. I need to create otherwise I get moody and blue. That’s why I abandoned studying Anglistics and Art History and began to study Communication Design. I love the feeling of having achieved something afterwards. I love it when I see the result in the end and thinking: “I made this all by myself!” What is your favorite winter memory? There are so many great memories! But there is one which I always think of when I think of winter: About 3 years ago I went sledding with my best friends after school and it was so much fun! I hadn’t done this since I was little and it felt so good. losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 january 2013 113 becoming winter PhotographY: Kristy Bergeron Model: Danielle Merlino Hair/MUA: Lindsey Alagna 3 1 4 2 5 1. Anna-Maria Materi // 2. Lissuin // 3. Sarah Evers 4. Julia Winter // 5. Elena Brangi losT FREEDOM MAGAZINE // Volume 2 / Issue 3 Interested In Submitting? THEME OF THE NEXT ISSUE: sentiment To submit please send an email to firstname.lastname@example.org with the following: 1. Name/age/location 2. At least 3 (low-res) photos that exemplify the theme sentiment. (For writers - please send 2 pieces of writing) 3. A short answer of your idea of sentiment is. january 2013 123 LOST FREEDOM MAGAZINE